I tried to be what you wanted,
I tried to be there.
I'm sorry that I wasn't enough for you,
i'll try harder next time.
I guess I am done trying,
because I feel like your heart is with her.
Maybe I am wrong,
but you never gave me reason to think otherwise.
Every song I hear reminds me of you,
and all I can seem to do is fight back tears.
But I am done fighting,
because I know you gave up long ago...

Some people say you can't rely on anyone but yourself,
Some people say no trust is to be earned.

Though,
What they don't realize is that your shadow is always there.
You may not see it, you may not even notice,
But he is there.
He is with you through it all.
He keeps you grounded and in control.

Your Shadow,

Is ALWAYS one step behind you in everything you do.

Its a pain to be in love with someone who you never expected to love.
That person being the opposite of what you expected to fall for.
It is even worse when things with that person change,
And you only seem appealing at the expense of his liver.
Am i only attractive to a drunken fool?
Or is that when his true, hidden feelings emerge?
The love that I have for him lasts through all things.
But the only time his eye is on me,
Is after he is at the bottom of the bottle.
Yet,
It is an amazing feeling he radiates at such moments...

People often tell me to walk away,
And they often tell me you aren't good enough,
But they do not know you.
They do not know the side of you I see,
The side I fell in love with.
I just want them to be able to see you as I see you.
To realize how truly amazing you are.
And how truly amazing you make me feel I have become.
You have seen me through rose-colored glasses at one point,
You make me feel as though I am a bluebird trapped in the body of a girl,
Like I am actually meant to fly.
You make me feel as if the clouds are merely a moment away,
Even though we are miles apart.
You will always have my love and they will not tear us apart.

As you pass through my mind for the millionth time today,
I try to keep my eyes open,
to appear normal and happy.

Though everyone can see through that as the colors around me start to blur.

Globs of black,
of white and blue,
green blurs as well.

Just as everything goes pitch black,
and I feel the streams falling over my cheeks...

And now everyone knows what I have known for a long time,
that the pain has become unbearable.

How could you?

How could you possibly leave me
in the time I need you most...
Can you not see the hole in my chest
that I am trying so desperately to hide?

I just wish you would realize the importance
that you have in my life.

Please,
just come back to me...

Somewhere along the way,
I fell for you.
Today marks two years,
Since i first said hello.
I remember clearly,
The first time you spoke to me,
I felt like all the stars were for once lining up and shining upon my face.
When i first saw your smile
I remember wanting to melt.
I remember the first time,
You leaned in and crushed your lips on mine.
It was at that moment,
That i knew I was meant to forever be in your embrace.
To this day my love for you is
As strong as the winds over the highest mountains,
As forceful as the pressure in the bottom of the deepest oceans,
As mighty as the lion in the deepest parts of the Safari,
But even these things are no match for the love and compassion i feel
When I get lost in the sparkling passion of your eyes.
I wish they would see how our love shines,
As bright as the blaring July sun.
I wish they cared that I love you,
Despite your imperfections.
I wont say I think you have no flaws,
Because I know you do.
Everyone does,
Love is simply being able to overlook them.
I just wish they could overlook our difference.
Age is only a number,
It doesn't effect feelings in the slightest.
I wish they thought of it that way.
But for now,
We will have to be apart.
But I promise, my love,
One day,
We will be together and never be able to be pulled apart based on others beliefs