I want a normal life
Just like a newborn child
I am a lover-hater
I am an instigator
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated

Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins

Sooner or later
You're gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw your life away

You are an infantile
I knew it all the while
You shouldn't try to play me
Just like you see on T.V.
You are an oversight
Just like a parasite
Why am I so pathetic
I knew you won't forget it

Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins

Sooner or later
You're gonna hate it
Go ahead and through my life away
Driving me under
Leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw my life away

Sooner or later
You're gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw our life away
Driving me under
Leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw our life away

Throw our life away
Throw our life away

A summer breeze comes knocking again
I open up just to let in the sun
And all I hear are those fleeting tweeting notes they carry away

A half read book I place to the side
"Hey little guy, where on earth are you from" with a smile
And with me blindfolded I still know that it's 3 after noon

I know how simple this world it seems
And yes I know, that it's me who is weird
But even I have to wonder why I cant just be like the rest

And far away and out of their sight,
there is a house in the forest of trees hid away
And can you bet there no one crazy enough to stop by

Don't look in their eyes!
A heart so cold became ice, I guess that I wasn't able to make a friend
And all I see everyday can never be much more than a thing
The world outside there is made from pictures in books
So please could you forgive me thinking such terrible things
Will someone please let me see with my own eyes?

Long long long since before I was born
It's always been an inside out world but there was burning
Life inside me
I knew it'd never it'd never go out

Hey hey, when will that knock ever come?
I just cant wait to see what kind of future is out there
I'll wait to hear the sound
Knocking a beautiful call at my door

Dreams about what life would be like
As I stare faraway in a daze
And just then, I could hear soft calling of a voice in the wind

I take a leap back and knock down my tea
And of course, it's all over the desk
"What can I do?"
As I stare at the door without a thing in the way

"Don't look in their eyes...or they'll be turned into stone."
My parents always had earnestly told me this
And surely my eyes were to be treated in just the same way

And just as stories go, the people will run far away
But I don't blame them being way too afraid
The world was just not to love someone like me

Knock Knock Knock and the sound is loud
Although I'd never heard a knock upon my door so
I was so scared
Oh god I need to think straight

Hey hey, hearing a knock at my door
I never thought that I would ever hear such beating
And just so easily
It opened to leave me exposed and alone


And then finding me cowering hiding eyes away
That person was of course to be surprised
"Don't look in my eyes...petrified...you'll turn to stone"
I tried to speak but he just smiled back.

"I was just like you, I was scared of living life
so scared that I would turn completely stone
But living in a world where no one is ever scared,
now wouldn't that be nice?

Now now now, from a spark inside
I had imagined a new world for me to live in
Where they love me I feel it ringing out now

Hey hey, what does this world look like
I wanna know please tell me just how then can I get there
So if I'm ever lost
Hey will you search for me once again?

A summer breeze comes knocking again
Blowing the hood that you graciously gave
Let it blow as you finally see such a beautiful smile

It's true, we're all a little insane
But it's so clear now that I'm unchained

Fear is only in our minds
Taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds
But it's taking over all the time

You poor sweet innocent thing, dry your eyes
And testify
You know you live to break me, don't deny
Sweet sacrifice

One day I'm gonna forget your name
And one sweet day you're gonna drown in my lost pain

Fear is only in our minds
Taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds
But it's taking over all the time

You poor sweet innocent thing, dry your eyes
And testify
You know you love to hate me, don't you honey
I'm your sacrifice

I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life.

Do you wonder why you hate?
Our burning ashes blacken the day
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
A world of nothingness, ******* away

You poor sweet innocent thing, dry your eyes
And testify
You know you live to break me, don't deny
Sweet sacrifice

I am great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.

Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, and almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lie down,
and wait patiently for the day that I die.

I cry, I scream, I bawl, and sleep,
even though I have promises to keep.
I wait, and wonder, and cry some more,
And I ache and burn from my very core.

Then, I am not alone, and the mask reappears:
Out goes the grief, pain and all of the tears,
As I am a happy person, cheerful all the day.
A world full of rainbow, not one shade of grey.

Of course I am not okay, I am not fine,
No matter how much I seem to shine.
I don't even know why I feel this...
Why my existence is one long, endless abyss.

But it is, and will be, so I cling to life,
As one day I might slip, and end it with a knife.
But, I am still here, no matter what my dreams might say
And I hope that one day I will actually be okay.

When it is silent enough, my ears start to ring overwhelmingly loud
If i listen to the silence hard enough, i start to hear voices and music
Quiet is violent
I hate the silence...

You know you're not the only one
When they all come crashing down, midflight,
You know you're not the only one.
When they're so alone they find a back door out of life.
You know you're not the only one.

We're all grieving,
Lost and bleeding.

All our lives,
We've been waiting
For someone to call our leader.
All your lies,
I'm not believing.
Heaven shine a light down on me.

So afraid to open your eyes, hypnotized.
You know you're not the only one
Never understood this life.
And you're right, I don't deserve
But you know I'm not the only one.

We're all grieving,
Lost and bleeding.

All our lives,
We've been waiting
For someone to call our leader.
All your lies,
I'm not believing.
Heaven shine a light down on me.

Don't look down,
Don't look into the eyes of the world beneath you.
Don't look down, you'll fall down,
You'll become their sacrifice.

Right or wrong.
Can't hold onto the fear that I'm lost without you.
If I can't feel, I'm not mine,
I'm not real.

All our lives,
We've been waiting
For someone to call our leader.
All your lies,
I'm not believing,
Heaven shine a light down on me.

Sing it for me
I can't erase the stupid things I say
You're better than me
I struggle just to find a better way

So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight
Take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road
The one that I should try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight
Just take a breath and softly say goodbye

You wouldn't like me
Keep moving on until forever ends
Don't try to fight me
The beauty queen has lost her crown again

So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight
Take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road
The one that I should try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight
Just take a breath and softly say goodbye
Goodbye

So why are you so eager to betray?
Pick the pieces up
Pick the pieces up
So why are you the one who walks away?
Pick the pieces up
Pick the pieces up
Pick the pieces up

So here we are
Fighting and trying to hide the scars
I'll be home tonight
Take a breath and softly say goodbye
The lonely road
The one that I should try to walk alone
I'll be home tonight
Take a breath and softly say goodbye
Just take a breath and softly say goodbye

It's a crime
You let it happen to me
Never mind
I let it happen to you
Out of mind
Forget it, there's nothing to lose
But my mind and all the things I wanted
Every time
I get it I throw it away
It's a sign
I get it, I want to stay
By the time
I lose it, I'm not afraid
I'm alive but I can surely fake it

How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me?
You're the part of me that I don't want to see

There's a place
I see you follow me
Just a taste
Of all that might come to be
I'm alone
But holding breath you can breathe
To question every answer counted

Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way

Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way

It's a crime
You let it happen to me
I don't mind
I love it, easy to please
Never mind
Forget it, just memories
On a page inside a spiral notebook

Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
I can live forever here

Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
I can live forever here

How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me?
You're the part of me that I don't want to see
I can live forever here

They say we are what we are
But we don't have to be
I'm bad behaviour but I do it in the best way
I'll be the watcher (watcher)
Of the eternal flame
I'll be the guard dog of all your fever dreams

I am the sand in the bottom half of the hourglass (glass)
I try to picture me without you but I can't

'Cause we could be immortals
Immortals
Just not for long, for long
Live with me forever now
You pull the blackout curtains down
Just not for long, for long
'Cause we could be immor- immortals
Immor- immortals
Immor- immortals
Immor- immortals

Just when the only pay-off for having any faith
Is when it's tested again and again everyday
I'm still comparing your past to my future
It might be your wound but they're my sutures

'Cause we could be immortals
Immortals
Just not for long, for long
Live with me forever now
You pull the blackout curtains down
Just not for long, for long
'Cause we could be immor- immortals
Immor- immortals

Live with me forever now (Now, now, now)
You pull the blackout curtains down (Down, down down)

'Cause we could be immortals
Immortals
Just not for long, for long
We could be immor- immortals
Immor- immortals
Immor- immortals
Immor- immortals

Fall

Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath, it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now's your chance to run for cover
I don't want to change the world
I just want to eave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to heaven

All is lost again
But I'm not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away
And I'll survive
Paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I will not fall, cold-blooded fake
I will shut the world away

Open your eyes

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away
And I'll survive
Paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I will not fall, cold-blooded fake
I will shut the world away

White walls surround us
No light will touch your face again
Rain taps the window
As we sleep among the dead
Days go on forever
But I have not left your side
We can chase the dark together
If you go the so will I

There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye

Cold light above us
Hope fills your heart and fades away
Skin white as winter
As the sky returns to gray
Days go on forever
But I have not left your side
We can chase the dark together
If you go then so will I

There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
I'll keep holding on to you
But I can't bring you back to life
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye

You're dead alive
You're dead alive
You're dead alive
You're dead alive

There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
I'll keep holding on to you
But I can't bring you back to life
Sing the anthem of the angels
And say the last goodbye
Sing the anthem of the angels
And saw the last goodbye
Sing the anthem of the angels

Border line
Dead inside
I don't mind
Falling to pieces
Count me in
Violent
Let's begin
Feeding the sickness
How do I
Simplify
Dislocate
The enemy's on the way

Show me what it's like to dream in black and white
So I can leave this world tonight

Full of fear
Ever-clear
I'll be here
Fighting forever
Curious
Venomous
You'll find me
Climbing to heaven
Never mind
Turn back time
You'll be fine
I will get left behind

Show me what it's like to dream in black and white
So I can leave this world tonight
Holding on too tight
Breathe the breath of life
So I can leave this world behind
It only hurts just once
They're only broken bones
Hide the hate inside

So I can leave this world behind

Show me what it's like to dream in black and white
So I can leave this world tonight
Holding on too tight
Breathe the breath of life
So I can leave this world behind

Would I be at a party?
Sure. In the shadows...
Would I share how I feel?
Sure. Anonymously...
Would I be seen with friends in public?
Sure. Never talking...
Would I share my name?
Sure. Never fully...
Would I be in the center?
Sure. For 2 seconds...
Am I known?
Sure. As "Happily Anonymous"...

I cannot knock on the door
or ask for extra napkins
I cannot call you and ask how you are
I cannot raise my hand without the fear of being wrong
I cannot hang out with new people
I cannot live my life
It is like being in a cage that is unlocked
I can get out but I have trapped myself
It is like wanting to have friends but cannot hang out
It is like suffocating but I am still breathing
It is not a way to live
It is a way to die

Frowns and places
singing jesters with
plastic faces, dance for me.
Sweet tasting lemon rind.
Darkness, sharpness why leave me behind?
Stunning, breath-taking beauty
pointless if it cannot be seen
I fought demons from beyond
my own yet to be grave.
Shallow and naive they came.
This is not my dream
Desperate with depict
screaming to be set free.

Here I lie forever
Sorrow still remains
Will the water pull me down
And wash it all away?
Come and take me over
Welcome to the game
Will the current drag me down and carry me away?
Suddenly the light begins to fade

I'm falling down
I can't wake up
I can not hold on
I will not let go
It's over now
There's no way out
I can not hold on
I will not let go

Silent I go under
I am not afraid
I can see the daylight shine
And slowly drift away
Safe to say it's over
Sink into the grave
There is nothing left inside
But I am wide awake
I can hear the devil call my name

I'm falling down
I can't wake up
I can not hold on
I will not let go
It's over now
There's no way out
I can not hold on
I will not let go

What do you call it when all you feel is pain?
When your loved ones look at you and all you feel is shame?
When your tired of living and playing this game?
When you know your life is meaningless and your the only one to blame?

What do you call it when the hurt is in your soul?
When you smile and laugh but you know its all a show?
When you feel like you have hit your all time low?
When nothing makes you happy and the darkness around you grows?

What do you call it when you feel so alone?
When your in your house but it does not feel like home?
When you look back in your life and every choice you made now seems wrong?
When the wait to die seems too long.

You don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live, to breathe
You're taking over me

Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live, to breathe
You're taking over me

I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live, to breathe
You're taking over me

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live, to breathe
You're taking over me

Taking over me
You're taking over me
Taking over me
Taking over me

There were times when I wonder what it is like to die.
Would it feel like pain? Would it feel like fainting?
Hey look... I'm dead.

I see nothing in your eyes
And the more I see the less I like
Is it over yet?
In my head

I know nothing of your kind
And I won't reveal your evil mind
Is it over yet?
I can't win

So sacrifice yourself
And let me have what's left
I know that I can find
The fire in your eyes
I'm going all the way
Get away please

You take the breath right out of me
You left a hole where my heart should be
You gotta fight just to make it through
Cause I will be the death of you

This will be all over soon
Pour salt into the open wound
Is it over yet?
Let me in

So sacrifice yourself
And let me have what's left
I know that I can find
The fire in your eyes
I'm going all the way
Get away please

You take the breath right out of me
You left a hole where me heart should be
You gotta fight just to make it through
Cause I will be the death of you

I'm waiting
I'm praying
Realise
Start hating

You take the breath right out of me
You left a hole where my heart should be
You gotta fight just to make it through
Cause I will be the death of you

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

Fifty-thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me

Going under

Don't want you hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily, defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I ca't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm

So go on and scream
Scream at me
I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through

I'm going under
Going under
Going under

Playground school bell rings
Again
Rain clouds come to play
Again

Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello
I am your mind
Giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't
Believe
Soon I know I'm awake
From this dream

Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello
I'm the lie
Living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello
I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

I'm cold and broken

It's over
I didn't want to see it come to this
I wonder
If I will ever see your face again
And I know
That I will find a way to shed the skin
It's simple
I know that I will suffer in the end

Fast I fade away
It's almost over
Hold on
Slow I suffocate
I'm cold and broken
Alone

It's hopeless
The end will come and wash it all away
Forsaken
I live for those I lost along the way
And I can't
Remember how it all began to break
It's our fault
I live to fight and die another die

Fast I fade away
It's almost over
Hold on
Slow I suffocate
I'm cold and broken
Alone

Fast I fade away
It's almost over
Hold on
Slow I suffocate
I'm cold and broken
Alone

I'm cold and broken

My hands are broken
And time is going on and on it goes
Forever

So I got high and
Loved all that life that I've taken all
For granted

Promise me you'll try
To leave it all behind
Cause I've elected hell
Lying to myself
Why have I gone blind?
Live another lie

You
You

The only way out
Is letting your guard down and never die
Forgotten

Forgive me my love
I stand here all alone and I can see
The bottom

Promise me you'll try
To leave it all behind
Cause I've elected hell
Lying to myself
Why have I gone blind?
Live another lie

You
You
You
You

If I have to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So let me ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place
In the Diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Try to find out
What makes you tick as I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?
There's a fine line
Between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say
That I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place
In the Diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I will try to find my place
In the Diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate I will crawl
Waiting for someone
No love
There's no love
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place
In the Diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the Fiary of Jane

Gray
Dark
Heavy clouds
Scary skies
Humid air

Slowly it falls
Down, down
Sprinkles turn to downpour
Thunder, lightning
Water flowing, flooding

Children
Frightened
Hide under their beds
In their closets
Cover their heads
Cry for Mummy
Cry for Daddy

Me
Outside
Drenched in a rainy world
With rainy skies
And rainy roads
Walking alone, thinking
What is this world?
What is the point of being lost
If people just find you again?

You are nothing at all. I have only slipped away into the next room. I am I, and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name, speak my name in the **** way which you always used. Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Play, smile, think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was, let it be spoken without effect, without a trace of a shadow on it. Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was: there is unbroken continuity. Why should I be out of mind when I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner. All is well.

Red is the colour
Of love and desire
A colour of passion
That is meant to inspire

When I return
I will bear a single red rose
To stand for the passion
The desire
That I have found

I will hold it's stem tight
In the palm of my hand
To stand for the love
The compassion
The joy
That I have finally found

But also to stand
For what I have endured
Years of being pushed away
Interrupted
Ignored

Years of being angry

Because when I return
I will give you the rose
As blood drips from my hand
Because every rose
Has its thorns

I live a chemical life
I'm on a mission to try
You went insane for a day
I'll have to shove it away
My only option is gone
Smile as they break and they fall
You want a simpler life
You can't erase what was mine

You must be out of your mind
This was a simple design
You f* it up every time
How could you leave me behind

It's all right, it's all right

Cause I know what you want
But you'll just have to wait
If I had it to give
I would give it away
I'm living it up
While I'm falling from grace
There's no way, there's no way
That I'm running away

I'm used to making it worse
Made up of four letter words
You want to know what it was
Now isolated and gone
You fall apart at the seams
I'l never know what it means
Try not to pull it apart
You're aiming straight for the heart

You must be out of your mind
This was a simple design
You f* it up every time
How could you leave me behind

It's all right, it's all right

Cause I know what you want
But you'll just have to wait
If I had it to give
I would give it away
I'm living it up
While I'm falling from grace
There's no way, there's no way
That I'm running away

It had to be the worst for me
I don't know what to say so let me be
And now I find you left me behind
I don't know what to say so never mind

You're mine

Cause I know what you want
But you'll just have to wait
If I had it to give
I would give it away
I'm living it up
While I'm falling from grace
There's no way, there's no way
That I'm running away
There's no way, there's no way
That I'm running away
There's no way, there's no way
That I'm running away

There is only 1 thing
                     2 do
                     3 words
                     4 you
                     I love you

Why can't it be perfect?
This love's not even real
Why don't I cry for you
From words dead from the start

I don't want you
I don't need you
I'll forget you
It doesn't matter
I'll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect
I love you

No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone?
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be
So perfectly happy

The lies you've succumb to
Blissfully unaware
I don't know how you can't see through my facade

I don't want you
I don't need you
I'll forget you
It doesn't matter
I'll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect
I love you

No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone?
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be
So perfectly happy

And maybe one day I'll
Get to see your smile
In the arms of someone
That loves you like I do

No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone?
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be
So perfectly happy

I cannot comfort you like you deserve. I cannot sympathize with you. I am not going to hold your hand and spare your feelings. I will not be able to say the right words. I am not some amazing girl that you read about in books. Song are not written about girls like me. I am not going to be able to encourage you or lift your spirits. So please, if you are looking for someone that is going to change you and make you a better person, keep looking. Because I will only drag you down with me.