Behind the closed doors and curtains we shared joyful laughs and bitter cries.
We did unspeakable things to each other.
Our home became hell and heaven.
We hurt each other, got back together and kept living the same nightmares.
I loved the ups and downs, loved the thrill..
One day you loved me so hard, one day you were so cold.
There were painful times when I felt invisible in the presence of you.
I was overwhelmed by your ego.
You made me forget about all of my dreams and aspirations in my life.
My life became wholly yours. I did not have a life anymore.
I used to have starts in my eyes, you took the light and life of them.
Now I was in the darkness.. Holding your hand and letting you lead me inside the depths of it..
I embraced the uncertainty of your darkness.
Closed my eyes and my mouth to be completely blind and mute.
I did not have to see and talk no more.. For you saw for me, you talked for me.
I became a puppet in your hands. You pulled my strings and tried to create the woman of your dreams.
Have I become her my love? Do you love me know?
If that's what you want I can wear her good long hair over mine. I can wear her makeup to look more like her. I can wear fancy clothes and act like her in them..
Will you love me now that I have changed for you?

Perhaps we both stayed true to our love.
But it does not concern me anymore.
For what value love has when it is not shown?
It's always been easy for you to say that you love me.
You have always loved me with your words.
You have always showed affection when you craved for intimacy.
Can you say that you loved me truly?
Why can't you see me when I only need your compassion?
It is like your heart is frozen and I am trying so hard to warm it.
Why is it so hard to break the ice that covers your heart?
How long should I wait for you to show me your love? Not with insincere words but with your honest actions.
You refuse to give, you are always the taker.
You have taken my love and my soul.
I am left with emptiness. For, you feed off of my soul.
I do not ask for much in return.
All I'm really asking for is you.

I asked you to help me clear my mind and my soul that have been covered with darkness.
I did not know your words would be that strong.
I did not know they would inspire me to break my chains.
Your impact on me cannot be denied.
All I needed was an inspiration to chase the light that would lead to my salvation.
Now I see a way out but I need patience,
like the babies waiting inside their mothers' wombs
to come to life.
I remember you telling me to be patient until we clear our path to live the love that we both have been dreaming of.
I am patient. I have been waiting inside this cage by myself for you to come back and turn this cage into a cozy house.
Am I worthy of your love and loyalty after all these sacrifices I made?
I tried so hard to erase you but I couldn't.
The more I tried, the more I hated you.
But I always stayed true to our love. Did you?

Once my soul was a chest, it used to protect the gems I had in my spirit.
Yet all of them turned into coal.
All the colorful precious stones faded away.
Now I have tiny dark coals laying inside the ashes of my cigs.
My soul is covered with fumes and dust.
I bear no strength to wipe them away.
I yearn for the purity of my soul, yet I have to live with the darkness inside me.
For there is no one to reach out and ask for comfort.
You trapped me inside the basement of your heart and there is no way out.
I cannot even see a light.
I invaded your castle with no intention of harm but you locked me inside the darkest dungeon of it.
It is still you I ask help from, for I am too weak to help myself and find a way out.

The apathy of my heart refuses to ask for love.
For it is as cold as a gravestone,
in front of which you have buried my bone.
I feel no sorrow, for I have done my part.
I tried my best to make a home out of you
but you kept tearing it down.
I lended my soul to you whenever you walked away,
hoping you to return it as safe and brave.
But whenever you came back home,
you brought it back so weary and grave..

I am as hot as the hellfire because of your love.
Are you willing to burn in the hot flames of my heart?
If you are, you will be the most precious gift I have ever had.
You worth more than diamonds.
Your light shines brighter than the shiniest start in the darkness of the night.
When you are ready, your light will collide with the hot flames of my heart.
We will merge into each other.
Only then your ice will melt and you will not belong to the high mountains where it only snow.
Let the heat of my heart devour you.
Do not be afraid to become one with me.
I want to drown in the depths of you.
I dream of a perfect universe where we are intertwined, living happily ever after.
Even when we die, we ought to die like Baucis and Philemon.
Bound together.
Entwining into eternity.