This is the house of which I live
Empty inside except for me
No windows doors or seams
People come over but

See me they don’t
Love me they won’t
Touch me they do
Leave me always


In this house I am safe from

He who has done me harm
He who broke my heart
He who left me

We built this house together
But he left when things fell under the weather

With him he took

My warmth
My smiles
My Happiness
My love
Leaving me here with this empty house  

Sometimes men come over

**** me they do
Make me feel good they do
Love me they can’t
Remind me of him always


This is the house of which I dream
It has furniture just for him and me
It has huge windows that I can open and see out

People come over sometimes
But it’s mostly I just me and him

Make love we do
Happy we are
Leave me he never will

In the big comfy house of my dreams
He loves me always
He wants me always
He makes love always
He talks to me always
He treats me right always
He is my friend always

But I am stranded in this house
With no windows doors or seams
Living in a nightmare dreaming a child’s dream

Hoping that truth, love and happiness will appear
Hoping that he will find me love me and keep me near

But this is the truth and this is how I live
In a house with no windows doors or seams
Always and never alone

I sometimes wish that I had not been blessed with the gift of having a big heart
I sometimes wish that I was not so eager to give that heart away
I sometimes wish I was smart enough to see past all the nonsense
For if I had not been blessed with a big heart, then it would never have been broken
For if I was not so eager or so blind, I would not have been so easily deceived
No one is whom they claim to be and no one says what is truly on their minds
Everyone is guilty of being a liar
Everyone is a fool
But I have been the greatest fool of all
I have leapt without looking
Hence, I have crumbled and been destroyed by my naivety
Where do you go once you’ve reached the bottom of an endless hole?
Is it possible to be revived once you’ve tasted death’s bitter kiss?
Or will I forever be imprisoned by the constant pain of discontinuation?
I have been abandoned by that heart
Now I am forced to see the truth of life
And forced to endure the pain of living alone
For you have shattered my heart and hidden all the pieces
Who am I without that heart …Who am I without you?

sometimes I wonder
is it me
or is it you
does it really only take one or could it be two

I told you I loved you
but maybe that's not true
Because I said it was me
but really the problem is you

loving you ain't easy
honestly I find you incredibly.... ******
you dress like a *****
not to mention you're a complete bore

I'm over it
I can't take this *******
I'm over us
So there's nothing left to discuss

Here one second and gone the next
Fleeting love and one night stands

No sweet romance
No warm whispers
Just one kiss
Just one moments bliss

His face
His Name
I don't remember

This night
This feeling I wont forget

Here one second and gone the next
Number five you were by far the best!

This is who I am
I try hard, hard as I can
My only dream
Makes me want to pull my hair and scream

The future lies right here in my hands
If only I could spread my wings and fly
But Dancers don't dance they get drunk and cry

Maybe one day there will be a sliver lining
Maybe one day my soul will stop crying
But for now I'll keep trying, trying, trying

Until my soul stops crying
Until I see the sliver Lining
Until I stop dancing and start flying