if i somehow could erase the minds of people who've never really had a mind
would i be a criminal?
would i be stealing?
whether its ideas or brainwashing people into doing things that they havent done
or maybe just to have them forget what they've remember

i could be running around
running,
out
of
my
mind

i mean honestly,
we're just particles
and atoms and cells
floating around like dust almost
tell me where our mind is suppose to be
what are we suppose to be doing with ourselves?

sadly, there is no life manual
no "guide" to life and our choices,
it is what it is

ive lost myself,

and no one can find me except me,

how can you find something when you dont know what to look for

even if you did, you wouldn’t know where


friday january 27 5:47 pm 2012

without words coming out my mouth

without sounds for you to hear.

its still beating fast,

slow,

palpitation you call it

it skips a beat,

then back together again.

can we be the ones who’ve fallen for the spaces?



can we really wait? what for?

are we actually waiting for something thats actually there?

it doesnt matter,

“nothing matters” you say

i feel it,

you feel it,

its all that matters.

near or far

real or fake

i feel you


12:55 am friday february 17, 2012

i cant sleep with the anticipation that you’re not here with me, when will i get to hear from you in my moment of paralysis.

i cant stop thinking about how much i want you, to feel you, for you to just hold me. its not about the ***, its not the ****** moist feeling ******* out of me, its not the penetrations.

i cant restrain myself from letting everything go and giving you all i have. im not even sure if you want my existence in your presence, but it feels inviting, and i want to be in your presence.

i don’t want to be that loose string hanging off your tee shirt that you somehow just cant seem to get off, but i do feel like i am.

please dont chew me up then spit me out. it would hurts and just thinking about it hurts.

but just to let you know, im all yours


wednesday february 29, 2012

why a unicorn, why not unihorn

wouldnt it make more sense if it was called a unihorn

maybe the fact that it sounds odd compared to unicorn

or maybe when it *****, corn comes out

kernel by kernel

but who knows really,

just the fact that its not called a unihorn but a unicorn


sunday march 11, 2012

could your body really ache for someones touch
the way their hands can make you feel like you're going to lose yourself
the image of them gives you chill and tingles
while they on the other hand might not feel what you're feeling

you long for a touch that was never there
feelings that they might not know exist
but deep inside you feel it, you want it so bad

you crave it.


monday february 13 2012 8:07 pm

your eyes soft as the winter sun
and it shines down on me
the wounds from my cuts heal
and your salty beach hits me

the stinging sensation is to die for
it cuts
its burns
but its just what i need


sunday jan 22, 2012 10:57 pm