When someone you love
Loses someone they loved
And they don't talk to you
Because you and him are through
And you reach out a hand
to no one
And they lose who they are
Were
And you watch as they disappear
From the sidelines of a suicide

You catch glimpses
of what you used to know
When he calls you to feel again
Feel you again
And nothing else
You pray he'll change
Back
Come
Back

You move on from him
But still feel too much
He can't move on from his loss
You lose him to the cost
Of a suicide

When someone you love
Loses someone they loved
And they don't talk to you
Because you and him are through
And you reach out a hand
to no one
And they lose who they are
Were
And you watch as they disappear
From the sidelines of a suicide

You catch glimpses
of what you used to know
When he calls you to feel again
Feel you again
And nothing else
You pray he'll change
Back
Come
Back

You move on from him
But still feel too much
He can't move on from his loss
You lose him to the cost
Of a suicide

"You two are gonna go out."
"You two are gonna end up together."
"Stop flirting with him."
"Second boyfriend!"

I don't want to.
I don't want to like him.
I don't want to date him.
I don't love him.
Not like that.
I love Sam.
Like that.

Why do I have to tell myself this?
Why do these thoughts cross my mind?
It's not right.
It's not fair he puts me through this.

I have a loving,
understanding,
boyfriend.
It's not fair what he does.

How he flirts.
Saying he's better.
More deserving.
But he's a friend.

I''m almost all he's got.
He needs me.
I need him too,
I guess.

But it's too hard.
It's too much.
He shouldn't have let it happen.
It's not my fault.

I can't keep blaming myself.
I love Sam.
He's amazing.
And he loves me.

Doesn't show it as much.
But I know he does!
He does!
He loves me!

Wrap myself in your sweater
The second my eyes get wetter
Comfort me and make me cry
I can't tell if would rather you or I die

I am honest
But honestly I don’t have trouble lying
I am happy
But sometimes it’s hard to stop crying
I’m a leader
But often I find myself following
I’m athletic
But I can’t really walk without falling
I’m loving
But sometimes I really don’t care
I’m smart
But not if you take time to compare
I’m organized
But I lose things at least once a week
I’m good-natured
But I’m also a complete control-freak
I’m trustworthy
But don’t worry I’ll tell you what she says
I’m me
But honestly I don’t know who that is

Drown it out with ice cream
Even if the only thing you can taste is the strawberry of his lips
Drown out your screams
Even if the cold doesn't compare to the cold you've felt ever since

Don’t let it melt
Don’t let him melt your heart with his deceitful words
Don’t remember how it felt
Don’t remember how he was the only one who really knew you

Fill yourself with it
Even if it will never fill the hole he left in you
Eat to make it through this
Even if inside all you feel is left and lonely

“A moment on your lips”
It felt like the right choice at the time
“A life time on your hips”
But you regret it now, don’t you?

Once it was labelled
You lost what we were
Too many opinions
You couldn't defer

You faked a break up
That soon became real
Peer pressure forced you
To change how you feel

For the next long month
I took space to recover
But on Hallowe'en I found out
That you found another

You two broke up
And Edwin brought us together
We hungout just twice
In the near-winter weather

I thought you liked me
Because we kissed at the park
But you loved me like a sister
Thought there wasn't a spark

You moved on to Emma
And we drifted apart
You found a new family
And it broke my heart

Every promise was broken
You weren't the same Reagen
You forgot about my feelings
And left with no reason

We had the worst fight of our history
So many hurtful things said
The worst: that you're leaving
That ripped me to shreds

Two months spent without you
But only just physically
'Cause you plagued my thoughts
And wrecked my stability

Ironically, it was Emma,
The girl who stole your attention,
That convinced you to come back
And repair our connection

Our relationship improved
But it wasn't restored
We only talked about Emma,
The girl you adored

Eventually, I met a boy
Who seemed to treat me much better
We started to date
He lent me his sweater

Everything changed
When Jesse moved away
You realized who cared
And what mistake you had made

As we got closer
Tristan started to withdraw
I was being too clingy
It's always been my flaw

The saying "History repeats itself"
Has never been more true
When Tristan and I stopped dating
You hoped that we'd get to

And just like last summer
I made out with Owen
But again it felt awkward
So it won't keep going

They say I've chosen you
Like my love's a competition
They say I've chosen you
I do it like tradition

All I know is I love you
And I always want to see you smile
Just understand that I can't
Make decisions for awhile

So happy birthday baby
May all your dreams come true
I hope this year's amazing
And I can spend it all with you