Fame, Power, Money
Where did you get it from?
Your daddy and mummy?
Watching the suffering in the word and doing nothing
Your clothes they look so stunning
Spending 10k on a shirt how disgusting
How can you be so numb
So utterly blind and dumb
You can help the unfortunate out
But do you?
You just pout
That you didn't get the Ferrari you wanted
Or the 5m instead of the 6m deep pool
You just keep on wanting and wanting
Stop being so cruel
Be more grateful
Maybe you can be less shameful
Maybe even less disgraceful
You are so unfaithful
So regretful
The definition of painful
The opposite of graceful
After you leave your mom and dad you will be unstable
Stop acting like a fool
I know it is hard because you are the biggest tool
You think you are such a jewel
You think you rule
Well Happy April Fools

Hearts pounding in my chest
Feel like somebody is squeezing it with all their strengths
Breathes get deeper
Brains getting foggier
Hearts getting closer
To break
I need you now
I am beginning to shake
Please don't leave me
Hold me tight
More than you ever did before
Not my dreams
But in real life
I do not know how much my heart can take
All it does these days is ache
Being close to you will make my heart stop
But being far makes it drop

I wanted somebody
To tell me
That I was precious
I wanted somebody
To tell me
That I was gracious
I wanted somebody
To tell me
That I was ferocious
But now I want somebody
To tell me
That I am
Devious
Envious
Furious
Delirious
Insidious
I want somebody to help me
I screamed it loud like a banshee
Somebody to make me feel alright
Make me shine so bright
Make me see the daylight
Lead me with their flashlight
Get rid of the parasite
Never put up a fight
Is it too late
To set things right
Tired of carrying the weight
Don't let it, don't let it, don't let it
Escalate
Or I will, I will, I will
Eliminate

School the never-ending cycle
Wake up 6 am in the morning over and over again
It is everybody’s biggest rival
I just want to jump in an airplane
Escape the all the monotone voices
The endless choices
******* up the teachers
Doing all my homework
Becoming a cheater
Researching every small thing on the network

I am breaking inside
As long as they are happy right?
Getting all the good grades, ivy league universities
I don't have a life my own
They will always remain on the throne
Nothing ever satisfies them
Nothing is ever good enough for them
I am never good enough for them
Dancing to the beat for their drum
They say they are not controlling and selfish
I beg to differ
They blame me for my rebellion
Calling me a hellion
Just because I want to live a life by my own choices
They raise their voices
Leaving me voiceless
I am helpless
I am reckless
I am friendless
I am breathless
I am defenseless
Comparing me to other kids
I am sorry, I can not be perfect so stop your subtle digs
There is too much pressure
Keep on fighting for the treasure
I need a refresher
It will get better
What a joke, call me a jesturer
I look around, all I see are my assessors
I need an adventure
Have to make an endeavor
Escape from all the cold weather
Little do I know I am trapped forever

I have a lot of secrets
If people find out they would run away from me
I have way too many regrets
But this is life, a movie
And I have been chosen to play the lead
It isn't perfect
But this what I have been signed for
If only I can quit
Escape from a trap door

You said "you hurt me"
Well sorry to break it to you
You hurt me too
You can't unsee the truth
Stop sugarcoating
You can't ignore it
There is no fix
Etched in our minds
Forever
Till the end of time
Don't be so clever
Trying to play your games
I know all your aims
I know you are incapable of sharing the blame
I know you better than you know your name

Missing a piece from my vase
No amount of glue can save my grace
Prisoner of the law
Staring deep into those blackened jaws
There is no cause
I wait around for the applause
I cannot erase
The feeling inside of me
Muttering to drop out of the race

We're flying
Your lying
I can't take it anymore
You call me a *****
I stare at you in disbelief
Moods turn to grief
We reach the ground
You turn around
Follow me with your head down
I try to leave you behind
You beg me to forgive you of your crimes
I shake my head
Your heart turns to lead
I try not to cry
You look at me dead in the eyes
"Your dead to me" you yell
I slowly fall down in a deep dark well

I sat next to you today
Making me feel as if today is my birthday
The way your eyes light up when you stare
Kiss me they dare
Your presence makes anything bearable
Makes everything enjoyable
I am scared of getting hurt
You are known to be a big flirt
Revealing my vulnerable side
Makes me horrified
Allowing someone to enter my heart
Impressing me with their art
Should I take the leap of faith
Locked and loaded like a gunsmith

Somebody, please send me a message
Listen to my cries of help
I need someone now
Standing aside from the crowd
Entirely alone
Stripped from my throne
Flying aimlessly like a drone
I can not do this anymore

Turned it off
Again
I will not turn it back on
That part of me is gone
I do not believe in love
I do not believe in happily ever after
I am stone cold
It is better this way
At least I do not have to run away
Believe it or not
This is my one shot

Sticks and stones may break your bones
But words can pierce your soul
Thought I could block it out with my headphones
Always pushing me down a never-ending hole

My heart is imperfect
Full of holes and arms
That stretch out to others
In hopes of bonds
No two holes the same
No souls shaped alike
And only the right ones
May fill each hole right.
Relationships we build
Form the fabric of life
Loneliness in any form
Cuts sharp like the knife
To love is to know
To know is to hold
I will cherish those loved
Till all has grown old.

I'm lying
To keep me upright
Waiting for the encore
Just opening the door.
Help Myself
Help Yourself
Why are we so confusing
In the end, we are the only people losing
We got to keep on living this lie
As long as we are alive
Until we die
We will not lose hope
But we will lose our minds
We terrified inside
Of what is fated
Between this long blurry endless lines.
People can see
That we are not as happy as can be
They always ask me
They always ask you
"Who are you into"
"Nobody"
We are torturing ourselves emotionally
Mentally
"I am so sorry"
We tell ourselves along the way
But we never change
The glances we engage
"I will do it today"
We say
But we never do
What's new?

Filling the voids in my heart
With the lies, they will tear me apart
My death will come to no shock
Their words will be a constant mock
As people will soon realize it was about time
I had to pay for my crimes
My words soon turn into the songs they play in the summertime
In the most heinous possible way, they will boast
The ones which I love will betray me the most
My soul will slowly decay on overdose

I stand there naked
Nothing is protecting me anymore
I try to strip away my layers
I pull them closer to me in fear.
I look in the mirror
Scars trailing down my body
Reminders of all the battles I have lost
I am sitting there in my Audi
Reminiscing about the good times
My skin is coated in frost
No heat can ever warm me up
I am beyond repair
I am thinking of how much I ******* up
I am far worse than an affair

I am a heartbreaker
I warned you to run away
To say your graces
But you stayed
Whose fault was that
Allowed me to walk all over you like a doormat
Pound your head in with a baseball bat
Making you unlucky like a black cat
I am sorry
I ended the party
Made your life blurry
Tossed you into the barbie
Took away all of your glory
But you were the one who stayed

I'm tired of these lies
The fact I can't open up I demise
No matter how much I try
I stay closed inside

What is difference between an angel and a devil
A Devil is an angel in disguise
An angel is just pretending to be civil
They both keep their eyes trained on the prize
Both soaring in the skies
They were once baptized
All of them hypnotize, fantasize and mesmerize
One of them is downright good
And the other one is just misunderstood

I have hurt a lot of people
I did so even if I didn't mean too
Traveling up this steep hill
Pushing the rock up like Sisyphus
I may be a bully
I may act like a cold hearted *****
But that doesn't mean I feel the consequences of my actions
Passing my time with all the distractions
Avoiding my pay all my taxes
Trying to hide my true feelings
Acting all tough and unruly

Why do I feel so empty inside
Like everything is gone; my ego, my pride
Nobody knows how much I tried to put it aside
How much I tried to laugh
Everything is frozen like a photograph
Worn out by the pain
Too numb to explain
It makes me go insane
The only thing which will help me survive
Is it ignore it and get on with my life

I'm good at hiding things
Better than a wife hiding her ring
I should tell the truth
I am ruining my youth
I bottle everything I feel inside
I can't take it anymore
No matter how much I tried
I cried myself at night
I wept until I was sore
I couldn't even crawl back to the shore

My body is screaming out to me
No matter how much I hurt it
This has to be the end
But it tries to mend
An impossible task
I put on a mask
Waiting for my daily act
Set in stone in my contract

You tied me down
Heartlessly removed my crown
I begged you to let me go
To end the show
You never listened
Threw me into a prison
Little did I know this was all the beginning
Crushed my ambition
Forgot all about my existence
You had one condition
Life imprisonment
I had to keep my distance
You soon became the twisted Villain
I feared you might become

Hiding underneath the cover
Ignoring will make all my problems go away
Pretending I am the hunter
And not the prey
My bullets deflecting right back at me
Leaving me wounded and hurt as can be
My confidence shining right through
But I am insecure
I try not to give out clues
Hiding behind my own shield
My fate is sealed
Still waiting for my wounds to heal
At last they never will until all my secrets are revealed

Picking up that part of me
Fixing it where its supposed to be
Keep on going with my life
Hiding my lies
Acting as if I am a saint
Anytime I will break
Pretending I don't feel faint
I do no sins
Oh look I lied again
There goes truth-telling down the drain
Pulling at all the strings
Spreading my wings
Not white
Darker than night
Like my mind
Here to corrupt mankind
I am a nightmare
Dressed as a daydream
Shall leave no one spared
Go run and scream
No matter how much you try
You can never escape my schemes
Sound the battle cry
Now you have my evil eye
Start saying your goodbyes

1,2,3,4
Get off the dance floor
5,6,7,8
Just go home and take a break
9,10,11,12
Can't wait to see you burn in hell

No matter how much I try
I'm breaking inside
Seeing all black and white
Shutting out the light
Embracing the night
Jumping from heights
Losing my might
Seeing eye to eye
Always feeling high
Soaring through the sky
Telling all sorts of lies
Making others cry
Shedding my shell
I'm going to hell
Sound the bell
Dropping all bombshells
Saying my farewell

Bringing light to a world that only seems dark
It is not easy as you think, it is only hard
Stepping away from the shadows and embracing who we are
May sound like our personal Alcatraz
We are so set in our own paths it's difficult to look around
If we don't we will soon fade to the backgrounds.
Hoping and wishing to become someone who we are not
Only creates our doom and makes us stiff like a blood clot.
Why can't we appreciate who we are
Because we are cowards too scared to embrace the star.

My heart is aching
I am reaching
Keep on dreaming
Wondering if it is all going to be alright
You were my ride or die
Until I left you alone
Abandoned without an explanation
Like every other clone
We were the perfect equation
I ran away when things got hard
You gathered your things and went too far
Caution tape around my heart
Put you out like a cigar

Sitting in my chair
I start letting go that part me
Playing nervously with my hair
I can finally breathe
I was trapped inside
The web of lies I have woven.
I am finally but not completely free
My heart smiling slightly
The world looks a little bit brighter
I have proven myself to be a fighter
One day I will get the courage to end it all
Till then I will stand tall
Not taking the great fall
Stopped banging my head against the wall
Stopped guzzling the alcohol
Stopped feeling as if I got hit by a cannonball
Now I am sleeping at nightfall

I am so cold
I would freeze your bones
You deserve so much better
I am as light as a feather
Hoping you can move on
Enjoy the show
People will come and go
I do not deserve you
I don't fit in with your crew
I am not a book you can renew
You have to wash me away like shampoo
Shake me off like a flu
I am not good enough for you.

I imagined you in my head,
Lying beside me in my bed,
I will never leave your side,
Not until the day I die.
You must think I am obsessed
But your love has me possessed
The way you look at me
Smile lingering on your lips
Softly giving me a kiss
Promise me you will never leave.
Putting your hands on my hips
Dancing slowly in the moonlight.
Never needing to fight
The moon shines so bright
A blessing in disguise
I open my eyes,
You fade away
Into the morning sky
Disappearing from my head.
No longer lying next to me in my bed

You are my Jack
I am your Rose
Our love was only a pose
To the outside world
You said you were never going to leave me
Little did I know
You were going to sink to the depths of the ocean
Leaving me stranded
Last time you ever called me your beloved

I call you, don't answer your phone
When I knock on your door
You never seem to be home
In need of some money
You are suddenly poor
Calling me honey
Do not call me that
Then walk all over me as if I am a doormat
You use me
Abuse me
Guess what
Now you lose me
Finally ran out of luck
I was too good for you
I must confess
You could never pull through
You were a mess
More than I was
I was blinded by lust

I just fall to my knees
Suffocating in all the *******
You injected in me
Poisoning my system
You built me my ultimate prison
I beg you to leave
Please allow me to breathe
Lying on the floor helpless
I can not even plead
I just bleed
Others stand watching as you slowly end me

Looking inside a wishing well
Wishing that everything goes well
I wait for my wish to come true
I wasn't surprised when it didn't
It hardly comes through

All you have done today is ignore
What have I done wrong?
I will stay up all night
Thinking about it till daylight
I am not alright
But I will pretend
Is this the end?
Give me a chance,
I will try to make amends
Please give me your assurance
I need to know your stance
I will wake up tomorrow
Hoping everything will be normal
It better be
Or I will forever be lost at sea.

I'm hiding behind a screen
Trying to breathe
All the air gets knocked out of me
I am waiting for a single soul
I cry out for help
No one comes by my side
I am more alone than I ever felt

I am dramatic
I am tragic
You still want me in your life
You have no idea why
Is it my essence?
My charisma?
My suspicions?
My co-dependent nature?
My never-ending stigma?
No.
You wanted to be my hero
Make me see life  clearer
Getting rid of my sorrows
Making me love the mirror
But, I shot you down
With my bow and arrow
Trapping you into paper town
Allowing you to drown
Stole your crown
Left you to die
Now you are asking yourself
"Why did I allow her into my life"

I found myself gazing into those sea green eyes
Waiting to be baptized
At last, I was a sinner
Did not deserve any mercy
Cries echoed rumbling through me
Every time I hear it, I die slowly
Long and deary
The pain will go away I say to myself in a wary
It never did
Took away all of my glory

I am paying for my crimes
Or am I?
Somebody please pay attention to my signs
I am crossing a line
Pretending to be fine
When I call, do not decline
I need someone to look at me as if I am a goldmine
Calling me like I am a hotline
Value me like a dollar sign
Not running away from me like I am a porcupine
Making me into their headline
I need someone to call me, mine
Do not make me say goodbye