Sitting in the bar just drinking Tired of waiting for someone who will never come My brain going overdrive rethinking I will never reach an outcome Throwing my glass at the wall Remembering how it feels to be small Thinking of where I went wrong Drowning all of my sorrows and mistakes Why do I have to be so fake Looking back and remembering how it feels to have a real smile Always acting as if I am on trial But I can not I am too scared Everything in my fantasy Just sitting by myself drinking Hennessy
All you have done today is ignore What have I done wrong? I will stay up all night Thinking about it till daylight I am not alright But I will pretend Is this the end? Give me a chance, I will try to make amends Please give me your assurance I need to know your stance I will wake up tomorrow Hoping everything will be normal It better be Or I will forever be lost at sea.
You're driving me crazy I like it like that Kissing my neck Your hands trailing down my back Lying in the sheets Hearing our hearts beat The night's bittersweet Being with you is a blessing Feeling as if I am in heaven Hope it is never ending But I know you have to leave At last, they all do Waiting for you come back The longer you are gone Quicker the world turns black Turns into Armageddon
Hearts pounding in my chest Feel like somebody is squeezing it with all their strengths Breathes get deeper Brains getting foggier Hearts getting closer To break I need you now I am beginning to shake Please don't leave me Hold me tight More than you ever did before Not my dreams But in real life I do not know how much my heart can take All it does these days is ache Being close to you will make my heart stop But being far makes it drop
I always made an effort To make everything perfect You sat alone Driving in your own zone Blocking my voice with your headphones Stripping skin off my bones Leaving me to freeze in the cold Helped me make my gravestone Controlled me like a clone Around you, I was never free I always loved you more Then you did me
You are my Jack I am your Rose Our love was only a pose To the outside world You said you were never going to leave me Little did I know You were going to sink to the depths of the ocean Leaving me stranded Last time you ever called me your beloved
I watch you silently from the other side of the room Aching to come near you Stand by your side Hear what stories you are telling Those feelings, I denied I am a puppet on the string You might not know it But I am controlled by your every movement Your beauty is inhuman The way you stare into my eyes Chuckle at my jokes My stomach fills with butterflies Igniting my hopes I want to trail my hands down your body Hold you tight in my embrace When you ask me something, the only thing I can say is oui. Falling under your grace. You are the one I want to impress You are the one who makes me feel whole These feelings I cam not process You make me feel safe like home.
Turned it off Again I will not turn it back on That part of me is gone I do not believe in love I do not believe in happily ever after I am stone cold It is better this way At least I do not have to run away Believe it or not This is my one shot
I'm good at hiding things Better than a wife hiding her ring I should tell the truth I am ruining my youth I bottle everything I feel inside I can't take it anymore No matter how much I tried I cried myself at night I wept until I was sore I couldn't even crawl back to the shore
You said "you hurt me" Well sorry to break it to you You hurt me too You can't unsee the truth Stop sugarcoating You can't ignore it There is no fix Etched in our minds Forever Till the end of time Don't be so clever Trying to play your games I know all your aims I know you are incapable of sharing the blame I know you better than you know your name
I love it when you just don't care I love it when you kiss me like nobody's there When it gets hard You are never afraid You never care what society says I love it when you do what you want Even if they said no Even if later on They said I told you so Maybe you should have listened to them I hate that you just don't care You should have stopped kissing me right then and there When it gets hard You should be afraid You should care what society says Run away from me Run the other way I hate it when you do what you want Even if they said no Even if later on They said I told you so
You pushed me away You pulled me near I tried to pray No matter what I do I always felt the fear Always fell down the stairs I started running and running The world started to look less cunning Then all I saw was red I was free I was finally dead I was as happy as I could be That didn't last long You were way too strong You see I thought running was the answer I couldn't be any more wrong The thing is I did not know you were a necromancer
Sometimes I feel you are feeling the same But then you go and give me fix feelings What do you want from me When you stare into my eyes We feel a spark Then you go talk about other girls Pushing me into the dark I feel like I want to hurl But I smile and agree Acting as if I am happy I can not make a move What if you disapprove? What if I am just naive? What if you are just thirty? What if I am a mere nominee?
You walk around in your attire Igniting my desires Let me be its buyer I want you And I know you want me too Without you, I am feeling blue. Wanting to run into your arms What's the harm? You are scared of getting hurt Well so am I So let's put our differences aside And live in the moment Before it's too late And what we feel gets delete.
I lost my best friend the day I made that choice It's torture that she can't remember my voice All the pain I caused will always eat me up inside You were there for me Turned a blind eye on my flaws Followed all the law A strong sense of the cause I'll regret forever that I hurt you You held me together with your glue You always came through My decision is the reason you are gone And I wish you could hear this song Of the hurt, pain and the rain But maybe you, not remembering will be a gain
Baby, you want me out So you scream and shout Baby, you want me now So you dream and pout Make up your mind Knowing what you want isn't a crime At least don't string me along There's a half and half chance you will be wrong But if you pick right, we will be dancing in a song Going far into the beyond I just need a response I know it's scary to be strong If you fall We fall together Just give me a call Love like ours can not measure
You twirl me around in your arms Lift me up in the sky Feeling so high You exceeded my expectations I didn't know about the consequences Like how broken I would feel When you left me The tears running down my face Becoming as fragile as a vase Every step I take Would remind me of all the memories I can never erase Even after all these years No matter how much you hurt me We can never become enemies No matter how much we argue I will always remain in love with you
Run as far away as you can Before I leave you In a trance With no chance Hollow You will find it difficult to swallow Taste nothing but sorrow Broken Used you like a coupon Your happiness will be forgotten Run before all you can do is regret Blaming me for the neglect
I'm lying To keep me upright Waiting for the encore Just opening the door. Help Myself Help Yourself Why are we so confusing In the end, we are the only people losing We got to keep on living this lie As long as we are alive Until we die We will not lose hope But we will lose our minds We terrified inside Of what is fated Between this long blurry endless lines. People can see That we are not as happy as can be They always ask me They always ask you "Who are you into" "Nobody" We are torturing ourselves emotionally Mentally "I am so sorry" We tell ourselves along the way But we never change The glances we engage "I will do it today" We say But we never do What's new?
You haven't killed me But I cry Every night I'm only half alive I am so close to breaking You have taken everything I have nothing left You convinced me I am a deadly sin I will never be the same I guess that was your aim Broke me down shamelessly until I couldn't bear the pain Filled with nothing but shame Who's to blame You? Or me? Who followed you blindly
Putting a smile on my face Thought I would get far Didn't know pretense was phase I was the complete and utter disgrace I faked it until I couldn't anymore I ran and slipped on the floor Saw all the gore Sun darkened leaving me blind Abandoned me Unlike all my crimes Voices in my head said I couldn't get away They were right Everything in black and grey
Suddenly your name on my phone Doesn't make me smile anymore Brings back all the memories Of the pain and the hurt And how I am the one to blame You wanted to help I pushed you away Left you wondering why you ever called me babe I was the worst decision you could ever make The feelings of guilt I can never shake If only you hadn't jumped in front of that truck On the freeway If you didn't get in the way You wouldn't have to pay Forever on a holiday
Bringing light to a world that only seems dark It is not easy as you think, it is only hard Stepping away from the shadows and embracing who we are May sound like our personal Alcatraz We are so set in our own paths it's difficult to look around If we don't we will soon fade to the backgrounds. Hoping and wishing to become someone who we are not Only creates our doom and makes us stiff like a blood clot. Why can't we appreciate who we are Because we are cowards too scared to embrace the star.
I stand in the rain Watching fall slowly around me You open my locked heart with your key It seemed impossible Was I being too gullible I never know why But I complied No second thoughts clouding my mind I was blind You won me over too easy Around you, I felt tipsy. Maybe it was a mistake Guess we'll know when I awake
I can not try I need to leave you behind I hope you can understand It is best for everyone if you just move on with your life Loving me is suicide Listen to the voices inside your mind What they are telling you is right Don't doubt Stuck in jail I am here to bail you out.
I drift away slowly You can try to save me But you won't succeed I am too far gone Consumed by all the greed I can not turn my switch back on Embracing my darkness Watching the blood slip through my fingers My reputation has been tarnished Pulling all the triggers Laughing at all the pain Having no weakness Is the only way Why should I change What can I say I am deranged Am I being awful? No I am only normal Why? Because I am mortal
I wish we never have to say goodbye Because it's so right The way you smile at me Makes my life worthwhile I am wondering why There is always a spark in your eyes When you look my way As if I am the one thing that is making your day
I stand there naked Nothing is protecting me anymore I try to strip away my layers I pull them closer to me in fear. I look in the mirror Scars trailing down my body Reminders of all the battles I have lost I am sitting there in my Audi Reminiscing about the good times My skin is coated in frost No heat can ever warm me up I am beyond repair I am thinking of how much I ******* up I am far worse than an affair
I am so cold I would freeze your bones You deserve so much better I am as light as a feather Hoping you can move on Enjoy the show People will come and go I do not deserve you I don't fit in with your crew I am not a book you can renew You have to wash me away like shampoo Shake me off like a flu I am not good enough for you.
Can I let go of my pride My fear of rejection Staying away from you is like only inhaling carbon dioxide Love spreading in my body becoming an infection The longer I stay away The closer I am drawn near You stay in my mind day by day When you're around there is nothing to fear I know you feel a connection I know there is a spark when we touch There is no objection I crave you so much Waiting for you to make the first move Time stands still when you walk in the room There is nothing you can improve Freed my heart from its tomb Kissing you slowly Tangled up in sheets Doing the unholy Embedded in my dreams
You're like a cigarette One hit and I’m addicted Around you, I start losing my etiquettes My feelings are conflicted I try not to fall But I am slowly You make me feel I am an angel Without you, I turn lonely No matter how many people are around me I always crave your presence Without you, I am nobody Being near you is a blessing I have to stay far Or you will break my heart
I am a heartbreaker I warned you to run away To say your graces But you stayed Whose fault was that Allowed me to walk all over you like a doormat Pound your head in with a baseball bat Making you unlucky like a black cat I am sorry I ended the party Made your life blurry Tossed you into the barbie Took away all of your glory But you were the one who stayed
Somebody, please send me a message Listen to my cries of help I need someone now Standing aside from the crowd Entirely alone Stripped from my throne Flying aimlessly like a drone I can not do this anymore
Life is game To win you must know how to play Breaking the rules is a recurring occurrence It is the only way to gain your insurance Those who play fair Try to give you their assurance But will be trapped forever in utter despair You can never win the game Without a sense of shame Without sharing the blame Without an indirect aim Cheating or not The outcome will always be the same
I call you, don't answer your phone When I knock on your door You never seem to be home In need of some money You are suddenly poor Calling me honey Do not call me that Then walk all over me as if I am a doormat You use me Abuse me Guess what Now you lose me Finally ran out of luck I was too good for you I must confess You could never pull through You were a mess More than I was I was blinded by lust
People always say there is something wrong in my head I just lay awake wondering in my bed If they are right or wrong I guess I might never know But I will keep on singing my song Sitting by the fireplace and drinking my Bordeaux
We're flying Your lying I can't take it anymore You call me a ***** I stare at you in disbelief Moods turn to grief We reach the ground You turn around Follow me with your head down I try to leave you behind You beg me to forgive you of your crimes I shake my head Your heart turns to lead I try not to cry You look at me dead in the eyes "Your dead to me" you yell I slowly fall down in a deep dark well
I imagined you in my head, Lying beside me in my bed, I will never leave your side, Not until the day I die. You must think I am obsessed But your love has me possessed The way you look at me Smile lingering on your lips Softly giving me a kiss Promise me you will never leave. Putting your hands on my hips Dancing slowly in the moonlight. Never needing to fight The moon shines so bright A blessing in disguise I open my eyes, You fade away Into the morning sky Disappearing from my head. No longer lying next to me in my bed
Looking into the night Waiting for something mystical to occur Found myself holding my breath I spin around in a spur My eyes go all blear I can not see the truth What life holds for me Will I ever be able to
My heart stops beating Words can't escape my mouth I stop dreaming and reminiscing Feeling myself drown Noises getting too loud I look down under me into the deep sea Waiting for somebody to notice my plea
Cross my heart Hope to die Soul's tearing apart People telling me I am the bad guy Pretending I am strong Acting as if I have no fears They all knew I was wrong They are lurking near Gripping me by the hair Pulling me under Come with us, they dare Doing their best to make me suffer I try to scream for help They silence me till death Not allowing me to even yelp I can feel their breath on my neck Their hands trailing down my body Picking apart my judgment Making me into their zombie Throwing me into their mental dungeon
Picking up that part of me Fixing it where its supposed to be Keep on going with my life Hiding my lies Acting as if I am a saint Anytime I will break Pretending I don't feel faint I do no sins Oh look I lied again There goes truth-telling down the drain Pulling at all the strings Spreading my wings Not white Darker than night Like my mind Here to corrupt mankind I am a nightmare Dressed as a daydream Shall leave no one spared Go run and scream No matter how much you try You can never escape my schemes Sound the battle cry Now you have my evil eye Start saying your goodbyes
Fame, Power, Money Where did you get it from? Your daddy and mummy? Watching the suffering in the word and doing nothing Your clothes they look so stunning Spending 10k on a shirt how disgusting How can you be so numb So utterly blind and dumb You can help the unfortunate out But do you? You just pout That you didn't get the Ferrari you wanted Or the 5m instead of the 6m deep pool You just keep on wanting and wanting Stop being so cruel Be more grateful Maybe you can be less shameful Maybe even less disgraceful You are so unfaithful So regretful The definition of painful The opposite of graceful After you leave your mom and dad you will be unstable Stop acting like a fool I know it is hard because you are the biggest tool You think you are such a jewel You think you rule Well Happy April Fools
One, Two, Three I try to believe Four, Five, Six There is nothing left to fix Seven, Eight, Nine No one left to confine Ten, Eleven, Twelve I can never delve