I'm that girl that's really insecure, I don't know if it's because i have plain brown hair or that i'm just really small.
I've been brought up in a world where 'perfect' is blonde hair and a skinny body. No! I'm not that girl, I'm a brunette and this is me.
Boy's say no no, I like curves and girls that are tanned, oh yeah i have all of that but where am I no boyfriend land.
You wonder why I'm insecure when all the time my friends get called beautiful and I'm just that nice girl with a personality that's colourful.
Ok, I'm not perfect but maybe thats just boring me, you maybe forget my name and only call me 'she' but thats fine with me, I am boring old me.

Why do you speak to her and not me
We used to get along so well
I used to be head over heels for you, couldn't you see, but I guess you want her now.
I don't know who to be mad at, you both knew i liked you, so why carry on?
Before you even stopped speaking to me, i knew you were gone.
The thing that hurts me the most is that i knew you loved me at one point, but i lost you didn't i?
I just let you go and carry on with her, without a goodbye, you carried on with that other girl, while i just stood there and watched and there was nothing i could do about that you made your decision, my body turned to frost, and now i know falling in love always comes with a cost.

I met you back then and I didn't realise I liked you
I thought I only wanted you as a friend, wish I could start over as new
It was only that sunny day, well yesterday,
I started developing feelings
I know it's 8 months later but I now I know I like you,
Now you like someone else
One of my good friends in fact
She's now your other half, your partner your girlfriend
I pretend I don't like you, I put on an act

There's now this sense of regret, from when I said no to you
why couldn't I have loved you back, didn't know who I liked,
didn't have a clue
Regret is something I don't usually say
but seeing you with her
I have to watch you both love each other
and watch our love turn into a blur

If only you could have realised how much I was flirting with you
or wasn't I that obvious, because I wasn't stuck to you like glue
But you've fallen for my friend and she's fallen as well
maybe you will both grown old together, I suppose only time can tell

And now there's me lying on my bed with regret
being the third wheel once again
oh how I wish we'd never even met
you're both happy, while my hearts been thrown into the drain

The next time I'm near you both, and you don't hear anything not even a word said
That's because I'm lonely inside, my hearts already dead.

And if there if a wedding please do still invite me
I'll just watch the man that got away, be filled with such happiness & glee.

I think I'm falling for you, harder than I thought I ever would
I would love to tell you how much I like you,
        but I don't know if I ever could

You're in the year below me, I don't know if that makes it wrong
I suppose I could wait another year for you,
        but I don't want to wait too long
... you could already be gone

That blonde hair, them blue eyes, the way you look at me
I don't think you know that I like you back, If only you could see

I see you at school almost everyday, you pass me in the hall
You probably get tired of seeing me, I become boring and dull
Maybe you can't tell that faith is telling us something every time we cross paths,
maybe in the future, we'll notice this and share a tear and a laugh

But for now we remain secret lovers nobody must know
The feelings that I share for you will remain un-shown, un-known
Just next time if I'm near maybe turn around
You'll probably catch me looking at you,
And we'll know that our love has been found

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You know when you feel like you've been put first for once
But then you're replaced
When you can feel the annoyance and see the pain on your face
All my mates have got a lad, some to have a laugh and mess around with,
And i'm just all alone , maybe because i don't put out
It's like my friends don't even want a conversation with me anymore
Their just stuck on their phone in their own little bubble,
Speaking to the 'love of their life', Oh Lord
They only want you for one thing, you're so vulnerable , you're just like an open door
So the next time you decide not to go out with me and go straight to his bed
I'll be just fine and he'll be like a bear that's just been fed
So don't change our plans next time you're with him,
I've already ripped up the diary and thrown it in the bin

FIN.