My heart aches
My emotions broken
Don't know where to turn
Asking all the what its
What if I fail
What if it happens again
What if this
What if that
I don't know what
Or where to turn
My heart constantly breaking
For I am destroyed

I don't know where to start
I don't know where to go
You have wandered from me
But now ur where u need to be
My love for you still is strong
Although our love was cast and wrong
Now I'm lost
No where to go
Shall I move on
Or be lost forever more
My heart says go
My mind says stay
I want ur advice either way
Call from the heavens
and guide me through
Make no longer
Where I hurt for you
Guide me on to where I go
My heart covered in frost
Because my love now
Is forever lost

Wearing these masks
Makes it easy to hide
I'm proud of your success
But all I do is cry
I stay hidden so ppl Dont know
Behind these masks
Nothing will show
I fake my anger
I fake my smiles
My meds barely help
My tears create the Nile
Depression ranks on high
Proven by the tears I cry
You'll never know what's wrong
Because the days of my mask
Always hidden
Always different
What you see is fake
No matter what is shown
You think you know me
But you probably Dont
I have mastered the shadows
Where my feelings stay hidden
In the darkness
Wanting to come in light
I have done before
But regretted the site
So I'll just stay hidden
And cry in the night
Dont try to figure me
You will never be right!

here i am bored and lost
trying to change but at no cost
no matter what i did
i return to old
drinking away
being so bold.
my attitude changes
but unknown why
now i think
where do i lie (spelling off)
my thoughts are scattered
i scrounge for change
just one beer i say
as i count away
three dollars not enough
seven gives me the excuse
"need my pool tabel"
five on pool two on *****
whats wrong with me?
what happens next?
what if my depression hits?
help is near but out of reach
what is next?
help me
i am calling
help me
i am asking
help me
help me
help

Life changes
Things go so fast
I don't move
But life flashes past
Standing still
No where to go
Now I have u
Let's see where it goes
Take me with u
Don't leave me behind
Take my hand
Put ur trust in me
Ill back down
I'll never pull away
I'm here when u need
I'm here when u don't
Take my hand
Let me pull u up
Take my hand
I'll keep u smiling
I want u as mine
My heart is already urs
So let's keep it slow
And see where it goes!!!!

A lonely traveler
Not letting ppl join
Walking down a dreary path
Alone and disappointed
Seeing his life pass
Like a dream or mirage
He sees what he wants
Reaches, misses
Knowing it will never be
He returns to the never lands
Alone
Depressed
Disappointed
Knowing what he wants
Knowing it won't be
He carries on
Moving slowly
Hiding
Crying
Protecting
He is the traveler

I sit here feeling all alone
Knowing I'm not in this world
I stare hopelessly at my phone
Having this nights
Filled with depressing
Drinking my sorrows
Into a suppression
I have many ppl at my side
But no one in my life
Like she was when I cried
My tears fell and she wiped them clean
Now they fall and I hear them scream
My heart is torn to little bits
But ppl try to fix it
She holds when I feel blue
But when things get tough
She runs nothing new
I forget my meds
Slump into depression
Next one helps
But I'm not her mission
I want that one
Like I had before
No matter how tough
She stayed at my side
I doubt I'll find her again
But that's no surprise
She was my soulmate
Now for is why I cry