What happens when we die?
In that last moment,
where the darkness envelopes,
leaving our physical bodies,
for naught but a bag of flesh.
Do we remember who we are?
Or does the darkness,
take every aspect of our being?
Do we remember the pain?
Do we remember the triumphs?
Do we remember each,
and every emotion,
that has stemmed,
from our humanity,
and our souls?
Do we remember our sacrifices,
for ourselves?
for the ones we loved?
for the ones we did not even know?
What happens when we die?
The people around me,
say I should not think,
about the dark aftermath of death,
since I am too young,
but this dark cloud,
haunts my being,
haunts my consciousness.
These dark thoughts,
which haunt me like a plague,
eat away at my sanity,
at a tender age of 15.
And who do I owe this dear shadow?
To a God which has put us here,
only to live,
and not know we lived.
Every fiber,
of this Filipino boy,
shakes at the thought,
of the light of life,
and the spark of humanity,
to disappear in one moment.
Maybe our life is in vain?
Maybe we go through this pain,
and get nothing in return?
We get naught,
but tears,
fears,
and suffering,
for every day we strive to be alive.
Every time we achieve,
it is only more to lose,
when you die.
For what is building,
the tallest tower,
if you,
and nobody else,
is able to witness it?
It is for naught,
naught but
the forgettable fact,
that you worked to the bone,
for such a joyous thing,
but in the end,
not even you,
could see its glory.
I mean not to take your pity,
I mean not to take you sympathy,
instead I would like the world to see,
what my and their thoughts of death would be,
and if anyone fears or has feared like me.
Been pretty troubled, can't sleep, can't solve math (lol couldn't before but now im really struggling) and basically having a hard time thinking, just needed to put it into poetry to get it out of my mind.