Trying to forget someone you loved, is like trying to remember someone you never met.
I will never forget the girl I truly felt in love with. The months I was with her felt like the best days of my life.
Days passed, but I can still feel her love and feel her deep within my heart and thoughts. I never really believed in true love, until the day the soothing words “I love you” came from her soft lips and her beautiful smile. I don’t know what it was, but every time I would hear those words from her I would suddenly get butterflies deep inside my gut and my knees felt like they would collapse because I felt so weak.
Every time she would tell me she was coming to town, I would try my hardest to be able to be free from our double wide trailer to be with her. We would always meet up at the city park under the first huge tree where we first met each other in the past. I always tried to take her out to dinner or take her out to lunch. I would always try to buy her gifts if I knew she was coming to town, just to have her jump into my arms and see her beautiful smile.
Now, I sit here alone at the city park under the tree with our names carved into it. It’s been almost five months now since I’ve seen her and sat under this tree with her. What I would do to have her back in my arms and have her smile at me, lock eye contact, and see the gorgeous gleam deep in her beautiful green eyes. Deep down inside my heart I know that I will never get her back. It’s hard to have her on my mind so much. When the memories of us come into my thoughts I lay down in my bed or under our tree and start to draw pictures of our names together with two wedding rings connected. Yeah maybe I should get over her, but I will always have a spot in my heart that will always love her.
Now a days, kids from school think I’m stupid and should just get over her. They always tell me I need to grow up. So every time they come up to my face and tell me to “forget her” and “grow up,” I stand up tall, trying to be taller than those, (trying not to show hurt inside). I lock eye contact with them, deep from my heart I tell them in a strong voice with no fear or hurt, “It’s truly hard to forget someone you love; it’s like trying to remember someone you've never met. So go try to remember a stranger, and then you’ll know how hard it is to forget."
But at least I know she's happy with someone, so I don't really have to worry about her being sad. Its been over a year since I've spoken to that girl. I have someone new in my life, but just remember its never easy to forget.