Don't come back again
Here's the truth
I got attached to you for a reason
I needed someone at that time
When I entered a new life
When I forced to get new people
When I had to accept the changes
When I had to live in the new place
I needed someone at that time
When I had to face everything alone
When I had to make serious choices
When it was hard to be alone
I needed someone at that time
When I got attached to you
But it's not what I thought
The reason, it wasn't you
I needed someone
So that's why I let you in easily
And I got attached
I needed anyone
So it wasn't just because it's you
I was fooled when I thought it was love
I needed someone who's anyone
It's not the person who you are
but the time when you came in
And also, you left at a time
When I still thought I'm in love you
But after facing the life after you
I found out that the real reason
Which made you everything in my life isn't here anymore
I found out that now I created a new life
I got a new social life
Got used to the place
And already made my choices
Now after that period of time
I do not need you
The reason isn't here anymore
And you left at a perfect time.
Don't come back again.

I'm sorry,
I know it's never enough
I know I hurt you
I lied
I'm sorry,
Hurting you hurts me
Loosing you was my fear
I'm sorry,
I lied to protect us
To keep what between us
I'm sorry,
I lied because I didn't wanna see you being hurt
Because I didn't want you to be shocked
I'm sorry,
For me being selfish
For me caring only about what I want
I'm sorry,
I tried to save us
By doing the opposite..

I can hear the fear inside me,
I want you but I can't do it again
Trying to give my heart what it wants,
But I can't break it again
I'm afraid
Afraid to do it
Afraid to let it touches it
Afraid if it touched it, it will realize it doesn't last
I have done it a lot,
But I keep doing it
And I keep breaking my small heart.
I crave what it wants
Till I reach it
I reach it and it suddenly disappears.
What can I tell this little heart?
How can I teach it?
How to tell it its life? And I have to move on?
And when I finally found a lie to say
You came out of nowhere.
I thought you're the one who could alive it again
But.. you disappeared.. too..
What do you want me to say?
Do I have to start teaching it the same?
Or should I just lie again?

I'm catching it.
Here I am,
It's been awhile, a long while
Since I saw the beauty of living
Since I saw the sun shining
The moon glowing
And the stars blinking
Here I am,
Standing again,
Like a new born baby
Who just learned how to stand
Here I am,
Running and shouting
Like a disabled person who just moved his hand
Here I am,
Finding the beauty of life
Like a blind person who saw the world for the first time.

And after all,
After all what we went through,
After all the love we have had,
After all the pain we have got,
You left, I got depressed,
After all the fight I have made to get you back,
After all the tries I have made,
Now, today, this moment,
I found out the hidden,
I found out what has never been clear,
I found out the lie I believed.
It was never love,
It was just a joke that I believed,
I have never loved you,
Or became happy beside you,
It's just the appearance of you,
What I got addicted to,
It has been just a stupid lie and I was just a fool kid.