Behind brown eyes, I realize the difference between me and you. Views askew I see in darker shades than you. I see the malice and the hate, when love can't compensate. The anger and the rudeness to strangers. I hate less and less and must confess, we should love more and drop this hateful mess. Shake hands and look up. As tears drop my jaw juts. Behind brown eyes I am alone in my head. I am alone in the cognitive recognition I have zero friends. Its behind brown eyes that wears a fake smile, all the while, the heart is degrading inside. Laughing and jesting. Smiling and suggesting to be happy. Being sappy with no shoulder to cry on. Constantly running in place. Not caring about saving face. Behind brown eyes hides a heart, that bleeds for everyone. Behind brown eyes, a man slowly dies. Behind brown eyes.

What makes you think you deserve my best? You didnt love me at my worst. I'm getting this off my chest, it feels like a curse. I'm running and drowning in my own head. Tripping over what I never said. The downward spiral was evil and twisted. I just want to look in your eyes and feel like I existed. All of the evils I've fought and bested. Your affection is all I wanted to feel connected. My hope's haunt my dreams. And your devilish games make my heart scream.

The way the sunshine reflects off your hair.
Pardon me, I mean not to stare.
I am truly enraptured.
Fleeting moments of true beauty captured.
Your flair and style, are all so inviting to linger awhile.
Allow me this moment in eternity,
To open this love lock turn key.
Your soft, sweet, sultry tone,
Grabs me by the heart and ears.
I am happy and in love,
I forget the tears.
I swell with pride and joy.
Your time I so enjoy.
I bare my heart and soul to you.
In your hands I trust mine own heart.
For your hands are soft and loving.
All encompassing my world,
I stand but a man with a dream of love.
I dream this dream wishing for no end.
I dream this dream of you.

I have given you so much of myself.
That I became lost in you.
So much time and thought, I still don't know what to do.
You forever encroach my thoughts and emotions.
I would've given you the world and swam oceans.
Just for the chance to love you.
You seem to want to bid me adieu.
This love makes me feel lost.
I'd love you no matter the cost.
Through all your past bruises and scars.
I love you for who you are.
I'd search the world over for you, over and again.
You are the love that I have found.

Dreams of you haunt my reality. This is my duality. I think of you in disdain. I want to crash my mental plane. The memory of you causes me apathy. Wallowing and drowning in self agony. I want you to release your toxic grip on my mind. Myself anew I want to find. I see you in the same dream. We always talk there, it tears at my seams. What does it all mean? I just want to be free.

I'm looking into the eyes of institution. Behind the bars of my own minds constitution. Thoughts rushing and twirling around. Only locked away are the ones so profound. I have been in this incarcerated state. One to many days late. If only I could stop my brain to abstain these confining reflections. I struggle and fight and hold in contention. These freeing thoughts that don't escape me. They construct this framing. I've almost tasted freedom thus far, I can see it through these mind prison bars.

I have a fear I hold so dear. It beats and pounds at my chest. The way I love you so, feels like ages ago. I want to grow apart, me and my heart. For in my wisdom I have felt pain. For in my stress I have gained. The knowledge of my weakness and my strength. I have sipped from miseries cup and drank. At last hope upon command I must obey. Seeing your lips part and hearing you say, I love you.

I'd give you the heart from my chest.
If it meant you get another breath.
It feels like we are just going through the motions.
I keep fighting all these emotions.
I'd stand by your judgment and conviction.
Paint me the picture you want depicted.
From our first kiss, you planted the seed.
Of love in my soul and every day you feed it.
From the moment our eyes met.
I can't help this feeling I get.
You make me soar through the clouds.
I didn't know you'd be my everything.
But I love it.

I am all that I can be.
I am me for you.
I am so lost.
I am without a clue.
I am struggling to come to.
I am forever chasing you.
I am not wanting to let go.
I am forever grateful for you.

I don't like how this feels.
You were supposed to help me heal.
I can't stand you looking at him.
Why am I not good enough?
Why do I have to be so tough?
This hurts so much.
He isn't right for you.
Why does it have to be a choice?
I want to love you so much.
I want to feel your touch.
I want our hearts to be one.
But I feel like I'm done.
I don't want to be.
I want it to be me.
I don't know.

I promise to love you when it's hard.
I promise to feel you from the heart.
I promise to always be here.
I promise not to live in fear.
I promise I'm not perfect.
I promise I'll try to be.
I promise to not be conserved.
I promise to love you how you deserve.
I promise to walk the walk.
I promise to always be here to talk.
I promise to be everything you need.
I promise to try to be what you want.
I promise you this promise, with a full heart. I promise this promise soul to soul. I promise to always keep my word.
I promise you this promise, because I love you.
I promise.

I wish you no more tears to cry.
I wish I was the reason why.
I wish for your touch.
I wish to love you so much.
I wish our hearts grew together.
I wish you happiness forever.
I wish those eyes never stop glistening.
I wish to be always listening.
I wish you less pain to go through
I wish a wish for you.

Your voice, a symphony of heaven
divinely orchestrated.
Cascading lovely silhouettes unto my ears. Shaking and uprooting my fears.
Giving me strength I knew not of.
Lifting me and showing me a new light. Guiding me in to a place so beautiful. I find my heart. So loving and open for you. Hoping you accept me in yours as I have you in mine.
You are the reason I walk with confidence and pride anew. I emerge a new man, a metamorphosis I owe to you. I am humbled. I value what you have taught me and hope to continue to learn. So sinfully beautiful you are to me. So lovingly yours if you allowed it. So yours. So lovingly yours.

Could you love me more than she did?
If you had the chance would you prove it?
When I was hurt would you listen?
When I work hard would you say I glisten?
Would you make me feel accepted?
Would you brag about me to your bestest?
Even through everything that tests us?
When I was cold would you hold me close?
I already love you, you are who I chose.

I hope your heart has room for me to fit in it.
I'd follow mine to you where eternity meets the infinite.
Your love is boundless and out of this galaxy.
I just hope it isn't my fallacy.
Your taste so sweet and intimate.
It starts a fire in me that burns so wildly.
It courses through my veins like water  crashing through a dam.
The sudden rush is ecstasy when our eyes meet.
I'd do anything for a love so sweet.
You are everything to me. My drive to accelerate my life. To not hold back or to be afraid. You are my strength when I feel weak.
You are my savior when I need saving.
You are my love and I never want to let go.

Pardon my happiness. Your voice carries tones of beauty. Hearing every word is a willing duty. Grace of Angel's fail to compare. To tempt temptation do I dare? I hope you realize your worth. For you are everything but a curse. You have the power to change feelings and emotions. You deserve the best of notions. May the world serve you in peace. As I lay asunder, torn to pieces.

I've loved you since our first kiss. We work so well as a team. The way you look into my eyes melts me to my soul. There isn't a thing in this world that I wouldn't do for you. I feel so alive with you. With you everything feels right. You make me feel like my heart is so full and over flowing. You are everything to me. I want you to take a chance on me. I know you've been hurt in the past, ghosted, made to feel alone. I promise to never do those things. I wish I had the words to express to you how I feel. Nothing I say is even close. You created a fire in me that only you can tame. You have my heart and always will. I'll love you with every ounce of my being and more. I want to be there when you succeed. I want our lives to give one another's greater meaning. You've helped me find who I am again. You've taught me that it's okay to let my walls down. I'm asking you, praying that you, do the same for me. I love you Summer. Until my last breath leaves my body, I'll give you everything I am and so much more. You're my person, my souls other half. You're my love I don't want to let go.

I wanted to end it period
But I continued with a comma
Renewed excitement by exclamation
Sometimes why the question marks
     Of which feels like indentation
The start of a new paragraph
Marks the preposition
Of a new start

Your eyes glisten with shimmering beauty. Taking me beyond realms of possible definition. My mind twisting and turning thoughts of you with intention. Contemplating a successful future hand in hand. For you I'd hustle, bustle and do the best I can. For you are worth more than a fortune.  In my eyes, you are my only, my everything.  My forever.

What is perfect? Is it the way the light reflects off your hair? Is it when I need you, you're there? I love you and I know it's in my eyes. From your appeasing aesthetics, to your thighs. Everything about you, I can't get enough. I long for your touch. Oh the sudden rush. You make my words so frantic. Every intention and meaning romantic. I want to be intimate with you in all aspects. My desires, my fears, what inspires, only you my dear.

**** cloth and bare knuckle savagery, is the type of love you had for me. Well vividly paint me an imagery. All the little details I want instilled in me. All the demons you killed in me, you still can't see they haunt me crazily. You only half loved me lazily, as easily as paint is lethal to an easel, I want to feel the stroke of your imagination. I want to soar high and feed off your invigoration. Take me to another land eagerly, or use me and toss me aside , with your **** cloth bare knuckle savagery.

I'm always searching for the right words to convince you.
They always seem so distant and out of reach.
I want to show you that I care and that one day I'd be worthy of your love. Everyday that passes, my heart breaks a little more.
Never knowing how you truly feel.
I love you because of who you are. The things that you say and do.
The person that you want to be for everyone around you. You are all that I've been searching for.
You are my yesterday and my tomorrow, you are my then and now.
I love you because you taught me to love myself. I love you because this world is so full of hate and evil. I love you because you taught me not everyone is that way. I love you because you give me faith for a better future.
I love you and I hope that someday you'll love me.
I love you.

I sway to and fro. Unbound from these earthly shackles. I'm learning to grow. Mine own predicaments I tackle. The need to love you slowly ebbs from my being. For the future is worth my seeing. A smile slowly cracks my lips, I've grown and I relish it. I no longer have the tendency to be reliant on your recency. I take long strides and leaps and bounds to where no one knows. I no longer drag my toes. Ever willing to live free and lovingly. Only true happiness stops me suddenly. And a smile cracks my lips. The one I needed, now this is it.

I miss the Summer that made me feel alive.
I miss the Summer who gives me drive.
I miss the Summer that looks at me with so much passion.
I miss the Summer who takes action.
I love the Summer that flirts.
I love the Summer that wears my shirts.
I love the Summer that takes away everything that hurts.
I love the Summer that's my world.
I love you Summer.

I would promise you infinite today's,
If tomorrow was guaranteed.
I would promise you my heart,
If it wasn't locked away indeed.
I'd promise you all the right words,
If but one would stay.
I'd promise you every ounce of love,
If not for fear of it failing,
I'd promise you effort and growth,
Unending desire between us both.
The one I seek,
So these promises,
I can keep.

Everyday I see you with him, a piece of me dies.
My eyes are as soaked as these rain soaked skies.
Emotions escape as tears and I feel drained.
My love for you is so hard to contain.
It's swelling and bursting out.
I'm overflowing with the thought of loving you.
It makes me happy when you cross my mind.
You're everything I need in this crazy spiraling world.
I fear I have not the words to express myself to you.
I'd give you my heart over and over if it meant you got to feel love again.
I'd give you my soul to see you look at me that way again.
You are forever and ever on my mind.
I catch your eyes sometimes and I can't help but feel your need for something short of a miracle.
I want to be that and everything more.
You are the tears that I make. You are the love that I can't shake.
You are the world to me. I but want to share it with you.
Hand in hand, heart to heart, soul to soul.
I love you.

I get lost in your eyes.
Between space and time.
Moments standing still.
Making my heart fill.
Joy and happiness merge in twists and twirls.
Your eyes the window into your world.
Then I blink,
And get lost all over again.

I feel used by consumers. An infectious tumor. Festering and growing. So alone and not slowing. People treat me as they please. Companionship such a tease. I yearn to be held in a higher regard. Do not be scared to say hi, that's a start.

I hate my pain. I love my mistakes.
Nothing to gain, yet everything is at stake.
I open my eyes, life is dark.
I am a lover in disguise, it's a start.
I yearn affection, yet bleed compassion.
I want your attention, while time is passing.
I grow old as I wait, for you to love me.
I despise this blind state, I just want to see.
Lifes final seconds are fleeting, I fade alone self defeating.
I tried to love you, I lost myself.
I wish I knew what to do, into the abyss I delve.
Wondering weary eyed and hopeless, I am alone.

Roaming to and hither, with no sense of direction.
Taking a moments pause for self reflection.
Something so inate, has me feeling irate.
The anger is confusing, leaves me questioning.
What ever was it's beckoning?
Trying to center myself and breathe.
Lest this attitude never leave.
All that dwells within shall weigh me down, unless I can lighten my burdens and figure them out.
Cast away these shackles that hinder my mind and soul.
Eager to ease my own spirit.
Gazing at the stars and letting my mind wander adrift.
Ebbing away at what's amiss.
I find myself solitary and wandering.
The breeze soothing, the rain misting my skin, in a damp, cool layer.
Here I am wandering, without a prayer.

I want to be your knight. Your resolve when you stand and fight. I want to be your courage when you fight your fears. Your laugh through the tears. Your smile when you are happy. Your center when you are off balance. I just want to love you.

Tears roll down your face.
My heart begins a sudden pace.
I feel the air leave the room.
The light becomes gloom.
All shreds of happiness dissipate.
My mind begins to decimate.
All options of how to react.
My body tightens and contracts.
Then you smile.
And suddenly life seems worth while.