Whenever I think I'd figured you out
I find myself entangled even more
You're ever changing, just like the path that winds itself through the woods
And I am ever lost in them

You're a flower pressed tightly
between the pages of my heart

Sometimes things are better left untold
As long as they dwell in my head,
They do not seem real
And I can convince myself that
Dark thoughts pass
I only have to change my own mind
But when I told you about it
And saw your eyes widen with disappointment
It seemed more real than ever
My worst fears seem to have taken life now
Lingering in the space between us
Now I have to persuade you too, that it was only
My mind
Playing tricks
On me

Everything changes when she leaves
Your cocky smile makes it's way up your
lips
And you shift closer, so that we barely
touch
You hold my gaze for ages, and whisper inappropiate things into my
ear
You seem to forget about her and your body language tells me you want to do
a lot more than flirting.

You forget about her when you're with me. But I
don't.
So please
stop.

think  old
grey earth
wind time
just black
care softly
catch tunes
hearts phoenix
skies shadow
icy flames
cold clouds
wet love
bring away
chains soldiers
madness tendrils
bullets fired
bound fields
rose splashing
lingering dances
shadowy sticky
heal swift
awe cried
grip haunting
rustling relaxed
treading crowds
lured flickering
conceal battles
leaving crumbs
feet touch
dare hiding
friends arm
shadows living
new friend
pain girl
dawn dance
cruel stone
seconds light
best forever
arms held
help people
trying fast
blood soul
suddenly gazing
threw falling
woke stones
fading ocean
crows despair
fly wings
thousand burning
finally glimpse
gentle water
embrace man
waiting unforgiving
stop ice
rain tears
far weight

It didn't happen when you first said you care about me
not even the second time you uttered those words
It didn't happen when you said you were my best friend
in this new city
It didn't happen when you told me to lay my head on your shoulder
and I finally relaxed in your gentle embrace
It didn't happen when you held me close in your arms
just a few seconds longer

I think I know when it happened

It happened when you were crying in your car
When we were surrounded by three other people
And I couldn't bear to see your despairing face in the rearview mirror
It was when I stretched my arm out to touch you,
like it was the first time
It was when I cried together with you for what felt like forever
When I felt every ounce of your misery and sorrow
I didn't care what the others would think.
That was the first time I told you
I love you
It's just now that I realize
You don't love me back

I tried to catch a shadow once
spoke to it softly, lured it out with crumbs of darkness
I tried to tame a shadow once
gaining his trust by living in black corners and drinking night together out of the same cup
I dare not say we became friends, but sometimes we dance away the moonless nights together