I miss the happiness
created by you
that flowed through my veins
and radiated out of my body
like the sunshine on a summers day

I used to think that I was a terrible student
I was terrible at learning
Then I grew to think I was good
I knew the answers for which I was yearning
I devolved, I suppose, and soon I was sure I was a failure once again
F's and C's and D minuses felt like my only friends
I tried to convince my stupid self that it didn't really matter
But I had to choose between learning and grade-earning and I guess I chose the latter.
It scared me to death what I had become a zombie fueled by grades
Focused more on that god ****** score than the progress that I made
I used to think I was good at learning but it was all pretend
I could play school but in the end A's and B's were not my friends.

When you told me you loved me
I believed every word said
Love struck on hope
Dreaming of the best

I thought you'd stand by me
I thought that you cared
I thought we'd kiss passionately
I had no reason to be scared

Then I saw you with her
Looking deep into her eyes
Telling her your feelings
Telling her your lies

I suppose I was naive
15 and insecure
You never even gave
My feelings a second thought

It's just like they say
In time you'll find the one
I used to think that was you
But for now, I'm done