My ceiling is suffocating me.
This past year was rough.
We had beautiful, lovely times.
Always followed by ugly, hurtful words.
I've been shut down and shut up
With every stab, my ceiling lowered
Millimeters at a time at first
And now it feels like it's moving by feet
People weren't created to have ceilings
So why is mine stunting my growth?
I want to stand tall, feel strong
The cement is cracking and soon will fall.
Well crash to the ground-me and my ceiling.
But the difference between me and my wall-
Cement will lay there, unmoving it will stay.
Me, I won't-I'll pray for strength to crawl.
Slowly moving through the debris, gasping for air.
For so long I've been unable to breathe
I'll stand, my wobbly knees won't give out as I
Carefully I take my first steps.
Looking back, but only once
What I see steals my breath.
Once so scary and strong
My ceiling- lonely, broken, still on the ground.
I see it was me letting it control me all along.
I look up to the sky
For the first time in years
And the rain washes the cement away
I'm free to grow tall as the trees.
I begin to dance my way through life.
Smiling.