I stood atop the castle
My heart locked inside
I unrelenting fought
to guard it’s sensitive skin
You knocked three times
I wouldn’t let you in
Nor would I let you leave

You reasoned with me
Compromising
Asking one way or another
I kept the bridge pulled
High over the moat

You yelled for me
Beating the words into my head
I begged you come to bed
I sewed sheets from my insecurities
Don’t you want to read them all?
If I share them and they dance across
my wine stained breath
Won’t you understand?

Or is it me who is not understanding...

Closed door
You offered comfort that you’d come back
Then I demanded you go home
Then I demanded you stay

The black curtains drawn
behind my eyes

You kissed my forehead goodbye
and left
and I’m left
In garments of guilt

You said don’t apologize
It is forgiven
Just allow me time away

I’m afraid you’ll stay away

In my castle my heart beats
Anxiously
Anxiously
Anxiously

I must open the door
Let down the bridge

For only he can decide
If he shall stay or go

I put down the crown
I can not control you

The mood has shifted
My heart beats
Rapidly
His lips touch
My forehead
His hands touch
My cheeks

Calls become frequent
Plans transcribed within a planner
Plans made on Monday
For the following weekend

Miss me already?
You said you’d tire
if you spent more than a day

Yet your eyes are wide
And filled with love and lust

He said, "Love is not asking where a person works or what they do because love doesn't care. Love simply wants to spend all of its time with you. If you won't take a bullet for love present or past - let it go. For it was never love, only a mask."