I just want to be unzipped from head to toe, let my insides spill out so that you can see everything I’ve been carrying inside. Bend down, pick them up and examine each *****, each word, each emotion I’ve been holding onto. Dust them off and decide if they’re enough for you. If they’re worthy enough to be put back. Look at my heart on the floor, riddled with confusion. It doesn’t know where it is or where it should be, and doesn’t have a home right now. My lungs lie next to it, shriveled up because you took my breath away and i don’t know how to ask for it back. I want to run my hands through your hair and ask for help, help me pick these up off the floor. Kiss me and show me how to use my mouth again. I don’t want to have to speak anymore, use your mouth to pry these secrets from my soul, bring them up, take them in. I want to lay it all out for you, show you everything at once. An overwhelming tornado that is all of me. I’ll unzip myself, place the pieces side by side and wait.

I feel you in my bones most when I wake up and on the drive home.
You’re gripping my sternum while I hold my breath. Afraid to breathe, if I do this may all just fall away. Trust your intuition but my intuition can’t get past the taste of your *** soaked lips. My intuition can’t get past the way your hands held mine and the way you smile when I start to spill my secrets. I feel like I can’t breathe. I’m spinning in circles trying to get to the center of your world. Your voice is stuck in my head. A broken record on repeat.