The night we met
Was a regular masquerade
With a gentle snow
Something to take the pressure off

We kept hiding behind masks
Not facing who we really were
I shouldn't have been surprised
When you finally hit bottom

Relapse into a sea of agony
Lying, cheating, stealing
Stealing my heart and running away
Never coming back

Blind to what was right in front
I ignored the signs
It was just for fun after all
Never imagined what was coming

I stayed there
Helped you heal
Even when I was sinking deeper
Into my self-created black hole

You've made your amends
And now I've made mine
I've had the last straw
This is my final goodbye

You're selfish.
You're a cheater and a liar.
You're manipulative.
You're a coward.

Use your charm as a trap
for those of us found weak and defenseless.
Harmless fun, for now.

You may be all of those things,
but I am worse to blame.

I believed the lies.
I saw you manipulate girl after girl.
I thought I was different.
But boy, was I wrong.

I was so stupid to fall for your tricks.
Living a life of ignorant bliss.
Falling further and further
Until I hit bottom
Forgiving, forgetting, like nothing had happened.

You can't have my pride,
You can't take my dignity.
No longer.
You can't have me.

Its days like today
that make me think
of what used be
what could have been
and what never was.

The cheating and lying;
the endless games.
The lust and desire;
the ignorant bliss.

I'm an outsider
Watching something so familiar
Yet something so distant
It never really was mine

Building a fire
Staying close and warm
While I alone
Am out in the cold

There was an "us" once
Now I'm falling without you
Losing control
Surviving life without you

I'm an outsider
Watching you with her

his smell still lingers
not enough to comfort
pain worsens
but you stay anyway
unwilling to let go

his memory still strong
not weakening with time
as much as you want it to go away
you don't

you can't accept the end
the wasted years
no more goodbye hug
never another kiss

oh, how you yearn for another kiss

Maybe it was a careless mistake.
I should have seen it coming... again.
But I won't admit it... yet.
Maybe it wasn't worth the fun.
Now you're gone
And I'm here
Alone
In an empty room.
So close, but I cannot reach
Pondering the lies you fed to me.
Years wasted caring
For someone I didn't really know.
Lingering on
what was
what wasn't
and what could have been.
The wind blows and seasons change.
Friends come and go.
Even those "forever friends"
Always friends.
Waking up seems pointless
Yet you do it anyway.
Part of you is missing,
and might not be coming back.
Still lingering on
the taste of his last kiss
the hug goodbye
the silence that ended it all.