I am Sarah, Sarah B,
I am a daughter to Mum and Dad,
A Sister to Siblings, one, two and me
And a Girlfriend to Boyfriend.
I am also You to You. Yes that can be
but I am Myself!
It's Me! It's ME!
Me, Myself And I,
are not Three,
But Are One.
They are Me

Just close you eyes,
And count to three.
I'll be there after 2.
Holding you close,
Like it was the very last time.
And if I'm not there in person,
I'm still in your Heart,
Just close your eyes,
And feel my warmth,
Of all the times I've held you close.

Where are you when I cry myself to sleep?
Where are you when I can't breathe?
Where are you when I can't handle it no more?
Where are you when I wonder if it's better being dead?
Are you asleep in your bed?
Are you smelling the beautiful flowers?
Are you out with your friends?
Are you busy living your life?
No you're there in Scotland, playing golf,
And I'm here crying my eyes out..
What can I do?
I don't know..
What do I do?
I write and cry..

Most nights I cry myself to sleep.
Deep in my thoughts,
Lost in my nightmares.
Tossing and Turning,
Not quite able to stay still and drift to sleep.

Some nights tough,
I feel blessed,
And Really Just happy!
For the people I care are content,
And have turned my mood around.

I used to be happy,
I used to be free, careless.
Always smiling and beaming.
Eating soil like it was candy.

I started to have nightmares,
Those nightmares came true.
The darkness started creeping in,
And I had no one to keep it out.

Most days now I am quiet,
Lonely with my thoughts.
Being ignored by the most,
Falling deeper into my hole.

Some days I am lucky,
I see a light, and feel courage.
That light is given to me by
My other half, my better half.

He keeps me safe.
He helps me cheer up again.
He came just in the nick of time,
Without him I'm sure I would be far off.

Never get your hopes up
Is what i learned from life
Cuz something always happens
And nothing ends up right

Times they are a changing
make everybody feel blue
just turn up the music
and forget what you're supposed to do.

I'm broken, I'm shattered,
tears roll down my face.
I hate this, this sadness,
when will it all go away?

I cried my heart out last night.
kept awake by my own thoughts.
Why can't he see? that i care?
But also that i am not enough?
My tears fall for not helping.
what is my existence for?
if not to help others?
i keep failing, i keep falling.
I'm tired, tired of all the pain.
i want to get better.
I've broken myself beyond repair.
Is failing all there is to my life?

I just wanted to say thank you!
For being my cure!
For turning my mood around,
Whenever I felt blue.
You're like my own sun,
When everyone else is the flu.
Made things all better.
I owe everything to you!

Standing in a crowd,
Familiar faces all around.
With my headphones plugged in,
My own world I am in.
Sometimes I wonder if I shall smile once more..
Now you're probably wondering why I’m being such a bore.
Truth be told I’m not really sure...
Is there even a cure?
Or shall I go on like this
Until no one will miss,
My departure from this world into the next
Armed with nothing but some complicated text..
Where I shall stay forever more
Until my heart is not so sore.
Or is there another way
Than this terrible fate that makes up my day??

I **** at writing Poetry.
I **** at being me.
I **** at everything I do.
I’m a disaster…

I can’t walk without falling.
I can’t drink without spilling.
I can’t talk without stuttering.
I’m a freak…

I don’t do well academically.
I don’t do well physically.
I don’t do well emotionally.
I’m a failure…
Not to mention I’m mean,
And also moody,
And a wee bit mental too.
I’m weird.

Nobody remembers me.
Nowhere I go is ever home.
Nothing I do is ever good.
Yes, I’m a socio path…

But I have a good heart,
And I’m also a good listener,
and I’m also not a bragger.
So I’ll shut up now.