Complex innards of the female form,
Unrealised by the male definition of the world.
Intensity grabs a hold,
Locking me harshly onto the cracks in-between.
There's no such thing as enough.
More and more till faces are torn.
Slit in two. Sown up. Slit in four. Sown up.
And so on.

There's no needle, skin, key.
All useless paraphernalia.
Inserted into the flesh,
Then poured out at death.

Empower myself with the force of control.
Uncontrolled self-control  lost to control of others.
Sunken by unwanted wanting of the sub-conscience.
Never to be fixed or forgotten,
Just left lingering in the abyss,
Eating away at you as you distaste yourself.

Visitations upon our corrected correctors,
Bringing solace for short periods.
Thrown fiercely under the bed to be forgotten again.
Convicted to lives of self-mutilation,
Self-deprivation, self-contemplation.
Hidden behind glistening eyes, just lies.

Stand, sit in ****** lanes peering up at the moon.
Lungs slowly growing blacker, laced with tar.
Hindsight is a curse, ignorance-bliss.
All held inside a shaking fist, shaking unwillingly.
Unwillingly shaking, kicking walls
To knock down, insane with powerless power.
Unhinged, unattached.
Inside, growls to torture.
Outside, smiles to assist.

Parasitic, pathogenic, permeable membrane,
No one else can think the same,
No one else can write this book,
Most of them don't dare to look.

Monstrous, mutating, miracle shame,
The only one to breath the name,
Crushed under a secret square,
They're all gone to my despair.

Beautiful, brilliant, baby boy,
To what do I owe the joy?
Holding hips and meeting lips,
Silent beds that rise and dip.

A rock on an island,
Cover it with sand,
Place that rock,
In the palm of your hand,
Hold it forever,
It becomes a part,
That rock in your hand,
Obscure, outdoor heart.


Music so sweet,
Silence so pure,
The day we met,
I was given the cure,
Fixed twice, last fix,
The past is gone,
Twisted and stiched,
Till it's done.


Come find me,
I'm not lost,
Finders are keepers,
Whatever the cost,
The day's over,
It's all just begun,
Everything aside,
You're the one.