It'd been a while since I unfolded the crease
overwhelmed with questions I opened it slowly
I struggled to read, as I could barely see,
but I made it through, and it reminded me...

                        You always knew the answers,
                               you always made me try,
           you always told me you were proud,
                    and it was okay to not be right

  I was flipping through an old picture album,
the one you made me when I was little,
   Tuesday nights and the London Eye,
school plays and that wagon we made,
I still offer help, to those in need,
but I no longer think with childish greed

I am becoming the woman
you knew I would be...
I wish you were here,
I wish you could see

I re-read the last letter you wrote me...

From God-knows-where,
you answered my prayers,
and I hear your message
loud and clear

I will explore the world
because you opened my eyes..
like poison pulsing through my veins,
I'm addicted to flight,
no matter how far,
no matter how high

I am strong,
At least that's what I my friends believe...
I wish you could meet them,
I wonder what you'd see...
There's a few that you would really like...
A few that mean a lot to me...

I went to California, we planned it for a day,
packed a few bags, got in the car, and simply drove away...
No body could believe it... (they all think I've gone insane)
It sounded like a memory, an escape from all the pain

I was sitting on the mountain as the sun was going down..
thinking to myself how you would've brought me to this town
and as the single tear I tried to fight fell slowly to the ground,
I whispered an audible thank you and excused any remaining doubt

You are here and every where,
you guide me through each day,
turning traffic lights to slow my rides
telling me when to leave, telling me when to stay

you still know exactly how to make me see, that life is one big mystery
full of adventures and unexplored roads,
I'll set cruise control and you can show me where to go
While we reminisce on the stories they've told

Change.
Its funny how things do.
I can't even explain in how many ways,
things will never be the same.
Am I responsible for this mess?
Should I delegate someone else for this?
He told me change was the only constant
but is it really for the best...?

I am doing what you've wanted,
and I'm sure you already know,
but thank you for pushing me,
and making sure I go

               You've always trusted me
Even when things went a little bit wrong,
you knew that I'd fix it and it wouldn't take long
so you bought a few books and told me to cook
for the first time ever, I was proud of my work

You never missed a show
From ballet to choir concerts,
talent shows to football games
gymnastic meets to farmers markets
to the clumsy, care-free, dancing duo

You always held my hand
Rough, and dry from a thousand shoe laces tied
but soft and familiar and never looking to fight
when things are hard and my energy's drained,
I picture your hands taking away my pain

You always were on time
I sat at school the other day,
waiting for my ride,
thinking about you, as I usually do,
wishing it was you that was stopping by

I break down sometimes
You were my rock,
my sounding board,
my only voice of reason,
you held me together
told me always to be better
you never let me down

I wish you were here
The days are getting harder it seems,
my life is changing so quickly
I'm loosing control, but I'm gaining some more,
I'm just not sure where you want me

What now?
I'm sorry for all the questions,
I don't mean to have so many,
I just can't stand to tell myself,
No one is ever ready

She is never satisfied
Searching for love in knots she ties
but as soon as she finds it, it is instantly denied
refusing to accept anything less then Divine

Is forever enough?
Theres no such thing as luck
She learned in class yesterday,
there is no such thing as a free lunch
but who decides who is good,
and who defined forever as such

What do you take off?
When things get heavy and a little bit rough
the first things I remove are each one of my socks
But I am curious to know, if you noticed your own,
the way you focus on your broken phone

What is happening to this world?
Have you noticed lately things are changing and breaking
everyone is confusing attention and affection
for love and loyalty so they find blunt rejection

Where do you draw the line?
And who isn't asking for more time?
Things become clear when you hear them as a rhyme
I wrote it in blood, can I be famous tonight?

How many people are playing this game?
And what do they call it when they confess to the shame
how long will we last passing the blame
define who we are when they all take aim

If I pushed, would you pull?
In this tug of war and in all that we've written
did it ever make sense,
did I make you feel like you were living?

Forever's just a word
A thousand lies, excuses, and insults were heard,
At the end of the day another is soon to come,
When you wake up from that dream,
*you'll soon be in this one.

Tear drops fall on souls longing to cry
She is not so ignorant that she doesn't ask why
It's not the first time she has asked that question
but before she was on the receiving end
and now she's asking for a different reason
and she wonders how long she will wait for the storm
tired of being left lost and alone.

your tree rises in my furry.

Scared stiff,
the time bomb ticks,
you will only see whats left of me
in a once dreamt up plan of a time machine

don't forget all the secrets you've told me

I may be young but I'm far from naive
and I'm not so scared as terrified of sleep
because I know that I can't help but find you in my dreams
and I may be cold but I am far from weak
and I've never asked for more then dedication to succeed
but you can't help yourself with no goals to achieve
you hesitate while I am knees deep in a pile you've bundled up just for me,
I'm wondering what's real and what you've made me believe
is this reality?
or your perfectly planned fantasy?
I'm not allowing any more cold feet
I'll stand alone while you finally meet
Do not offer while I cannot receive,
you love everybody
but you've forgotten what it means,
you're missing key points such as loyalty
I'm giving up on that,
I will accept defeat,
I will no longer dance on the tops of your feet,
I will tune out every reminder like a thousand times before
I wonder if you noticed, I've always locked your door..
I'm ready to let you go,
don't take this as you know,
more things have been done
then I could pass you in a note
words are more frequent when questions are asked,
I've never asked one you didn't answer back,
ask away will you please?
I'm not begging you but I will ask once, nicely.

The things you're looking for are most often found
hiding in plain sight
   In the dead of the night,
when everything feels right
who are you seeing when you close your eyes?

I am lost in a moment I cannot describe
I'm standing as tall as my heart let's me write
Do not confuse blessings for an unwanted fight
I simply am wishing the best for our unstructured lives.

Have you ever been questioned...
Have you ever asked why?
Have you thought of solutions someones already tried?
I'm telling you this power offers you something great.
Would you like to partake?

Sit with me,
Don't complicate
Life is too short
to live so irate

You are only allowed what you build or create..
So many opportunities are recklessly at stake..

My Secret Garden
  
Its the way he threatens to close his soul,
or the way he rolls over holes covering a seed that can't grow..
Making sure you're the last  to ever know
how far his addiction would be wiling to go
intertwining her fingers in a heart turned to stone
she turns to the Earth to have something to hold..
As the Earth captures her embrace,
she is over come with faith,
discovering a new world,
that shes allowed to create
tell me...
Do you believe in fate?
When friendship meets love and
somethings finally enough
will you let go of that grudge
or completely give up?
As she makes her way through each passing day.
she plants her seeds in the wounds that bleed,
reveling herself in guilty dreams
neglecting her heart for their greater need
complicating the plan seems a sure defeat
the only thing she keeps track of are her two attached feet..
Forgetting conversations that held no depth
she fell into a trap as she readily lept
into fleeting hands disguised as safety nets
her heart detached as her body slept
Misunderstood from the fall,
they thought she lost all control
she refused to conform
and meant no harm
heard underlying judgments
so she covered the scars
she's captivated by the stagnant stars
believing in a world bigger then ours
if seeing is believing, she was staring at mars
more tangible then ever,
she now understood
this life was not theirs
but an unwritten book
possibilities were endless
for a conclusion of sorts
theories are offered
but not relevant in court
she waits for those seeds to expose a new growth
praying it gives them a small dose of hope
because nurturing something piece by piece
seems the responsible solution for a world in need
ONE LOVE is the life I'll breed