Sarah Alana Cayton

Sarah Alana Cayton Aug 2011

Chapter after chapter you would read nothing but laughter
but line by line the truth seems divine
eloquently she side-steps the faults in her life
and slowly but surely she rekindles whats right

In her heart of hearts she knows whats real
she understands how he makes them feel
delicatly speaking with clear conviction
she explains their faults while they refuse to listen

Eager and proud she countinues to try
knowing full well they tell lie after lie
compassionate still, she stands by their side
and watches as stars shoot themselves by

Be quiet my love, don't blink an eye
instead sew them open and lock onto the sky
wait for the moment, when you know its enough
make a simple wish and believe in simple luck

Once upon a time, a long time ago,
I believed in myself and wanted everyone to know
then you came along, handcuffs were ready
you closed my eyes and made sure they were heavy

Now I'm on a mission, a goal is in sight
to never again let a man control my life
I am strong, faithful and bright,
you'll never see me fall, finally beliving in my rights

Sarah Alana Cayton Jul 2011

Mirror

I looked into the mirror today...
Found that it had a lot to say..
So I sat myself down in front that girl,
And asked her to explain her complicated world

I ponder the past with emotion like glass
Knowing full well his love wouldn't last
I got caught in the fall and couldnt get up
Half full or half empty it's still half a cup

No one to run to, no one to call
No one who understands, not even at all...
No one to hold, no one to tell,
For so long it was you I called for help..

The stories untold, unfinished and dry
The truth left undefined like shapes in the sky
Deciding each night if it's still worth the fight
I selfishly pray you'd stayed by my side.

Oh this mirror, how it saddens me so,
I would love to rip you out of there and help your mind grow..
Do not loose hope, new friend of mine,
All things get better if you allow them the time..

Reflection I see, be good to me...
You no longer have a solid search team
The empty threats are useless now,
You can ring the alarm but they won't hear it sound

If there is anything I could tell you love,
Be good to yourself and accept strangers hugs
Remember you're strong, and you always will be
Remember you're smart and always worthy

Don't let them break you,
As fragile as you are
Don't let them find out
Or ever see scars
...
Mirror, oh mirror, i see you better it seems...
I wish that you clould now see me...
Trade me spots, for a day or two?
I'd like to see the world from your point of view... "

Sarah Alana Cayton Jul 2011

Slowly

Whisper the things that I want to hear softly, slowly, into my ear..
Remind me calmly you will hold me near and curve my undying relentless fear..
Breathe your breath onto my lips, become my next new favorite fix..
Quietly see, theres still life in me, and can potentially accomplish anything..

If all you could hold was a shaking hand,
would you still write memories in the disappearing sand?

If all you could have was the half of me,
would you think it worth it when I'm running free?

Slowly softly sweetly sing, a song about me,
let the bird spread her wings, but always hold her closely..

Sarah Alana Cayton Jul 2011

Remind Me

Remind me what it feels like to loose my mind in a heartbeat,
Remind me everyday what it stings me not to say

Remind me right now, before everything fades away...
Remind me that you still might be there if i need you someday.

Remind me of the sunsets,
Remind of the headsets,
Remind me of the necklace
and all the simple set backs.

Remind me of the progress, that never was enough,
Remind me of the success, never the lack of trust.

Remind me of the weight you held, before all was broken down,
Remind me of how lost I was, spread hope that I may be found....

Remind me of the days I threw away the crown...
Remind me why i stay awake, when my eyes still want to drown.

Sarah Alana Cayton Feb 2011

Questions

How do you know when the time is right?
Does it kick you in the *** or slap you in the face?
Or does it sit by the water and paitently wait?
Is it yours to look at or mine to take?
Is it like a match, a one strike date..

When will I know that it is what is?
Will the stars align like an angels kiss?
Will the doves release and the choir sing?
Or will it feel like anything?

Will you scream it loud like your favoite song
Or whispear it softly like you might be wrong?
Will you grab my face and look in my eyes
Or hide in your thoughts to your own demise

Will you Hold me after and repeat it again
Or leave me hanging without means to this end
Will we fall into our dreams tonight
Or walk away without a kiss goodbye

What happens when the words are said?
Help me settle the thoughts In my head
Do the best to answer the few
Pleading questions I have for you

Sarah Alana Cayton Feb 2011

Chicken

The headlights are coming at me,

I thought that they might stop,

but suddenly it hits me,

truly like a rock.

Down I go, lights are out,

here I lay, what was that about?

When I regain my senses & ask around,

the medic informs me

someone tried to warn me.

Now here i lay, all drugged up,

whole body hurts, waiting for the nurse.

I ask her to help, this is just my luck.

Guess you shouldn't play chicken with a Chevy truck.

"He will never **** you, but he will save your life if you allow him to."

Sarah Alana Cayton Jan 2011

For you

I'm tired of being afraid that everything is changing.

I'm afraid of the mistakes that I seem to keep making

I'm afraid of the demons that haunt me while i'm sleeping

and I'm uneasy from the feelings that won't stop their screaming.

I'm terrified of the comfort level

I'm scared of the truth

I'm horrified of the trust,

Mainly my trust issues

I want you to know,

nothing will ever change

you will always be the one that makes my heart race.

I will always love you, just the same as today

because no matter where we end up, you will be worth the chase.

and while sometimes I know, the truth is hard to face,

There will never be anyone that can take your place.