Why are you sitting there looking at the blue wall?
Life is happening and yet you sit there looking at the wall.
Aimlessly sitting there looking at the blue wall.
Nothing's looking back at you.
Why are you staring at the wall?
There's more beyond the wall the cracks and blue paint stare back at you with a blank face.
I can see your face wanting to pour out screams for help.
Yet you still sit there motionless.
Why won't you look away?
What are you searching for?
The mind is blank thinking of nothing might possibly turn into something.
Wait.
Hours, minutes, seconds go by there you remain with blue in your eyes.
Stead fast glued to the seat why do you dream of nothing?

You're an addict and you can't give it up.
sitting in your room smoking stolen *** with coke going up your nose
and ****** flowing through your blood.
You have no friends
your dog doesn't even like you
all your family *****
and all you have is  bad luck.

I want you in my life.
I want you in my life,
even though all you do is cause me pain.
It's bittersweet,
something that I crave.

I miss you.
Hands, hair, lips, ears, fingers.
Everything.
I miss you. I miss the way you breathe.
You made me love so much,
you made me feel nothing but happy.
Now I'm all alone writing ****** poems and songs about how much you hurt me .
I never thought about all the pain you could cause me.

I feel your absence.
I never had feelings before
you had kissed me.

I woke up today
I just knew I didn't belong with you.
You always make be blue, I can't ever handle you.
My favorite memory I replay all the time.
Lying beneath the oak tree while your hand inter-wined with mine,
we were talking about our future,
turns out each one was just a little lie.
I don't want to see you anymore.
Get out of my life.

These drugs will save you but they'll never let you be,
Because you locked the door and threw away the key.
You've already hit the ground one too many times before.

But don't take for granted all the good and bad times.

You'll be safer on your own.