Once I wanted to know you
Then I wished for you to like me
After that I hoped that you felt the same as I
Later I dreamed that you would love me
So I prayed for you to answer

Once I wanted you to not hate me
Then I wished for you to hate me.
After that I hoped I were enabled to hate you
Later I dreamed of giving up
So I prayed for you to stop

Once I wanted you to understand
Then I wished for you to care
After that I hoped that you'd eventually know
Later I dreamed of walking away
So I prayed for no one to feel that pain

Now I no longer care
I finally wish for you to be gone
In the end I hope for us both to change
Lastly I dream of my scars to fade away
Because I no longer pray

I'm sorry my mother
I'm sorry I can't continue
But my pain is way to great
And nothing will change my mind
I'm sorry my mother

I'm sorry my father
I'm sorry I'm not that strong
But I feel way to weak
And can't carry on
I'm sorry my father

I'm sorry my sister
I'm sorry we can't sing anymore
But my throat is too soar
And I cannot use my voice
I'm sorry my sister

I'm sorry my brother
I'm sorry I can't carry you
But my legs can't bear any more weight
And I am about to collapse
I'm sorry my brother

I'm sorry my uncle
I'm sorry no more jokes
But laughter is impossible for me
And I'm as silent as the grave
I'm sorry my uncle

I'm sorry my aunt
I'm sorry I can't hear more stories
But I can't take in more words
And my ears are bleeding
I'm sorry my aunt

I'm sorry my cousin
I'm sorry we can't share more memories
But the spark in me is gone
And I am simply a burden to you
I'm sorry my cousin

Shadows are darkness
Darkness makes my heart
My heart is broken
Broken like the nations of old
The nations of old are dying
Dying will all men
All men are monsters
Monsters that lurk in the Shadows
Shadows that are darkness