I can't change the things I've done,
So Far from perfect.
Actions I've taken only fills me with regret.
Knowing that the past can be rewoned.
I refuse to fall or  to let my self drown.
With this in mind.
I'll  strive to Change my life in hopes that a better me I I can find.
I can't hate the person I once was.
Nor will I ever love my self with out letting go.
So I make a choice to be a better me .
Putting the past a part of history.
I can't change the things I've done.
BUT I CAN CHANGE THE PERSON I WLL SOON BECOME.

Working for the devil as I make my round.
Watching from a distance lifes slowly drown.
Taking all that you have this is who I am. Not proud of what I do. But  things stay the same.
I become close to your wife,husband and kids. This is the devils playground and I'm part of the game. But I'm not to Blame.
I watch you mess up your life.
making your own whole you take a dive.
The ones you love you lost respect as you  began to steal.
Lost their trust and brought hurt that time can't heal.
Don't say no as  money speaks.
Awear of where this leads.
Fear I see in some.
As I make my way collecting debts broke you become. harder to pay.
You hope that God hears you as you  pray.
As you look at your self in the mirror .
You hate yourself nothing gets any clearer.
lost every thing only to for the high you love to feel.
now I take everything you worked  so hard to build.
The Devils playground is where I could be found.
Making my rounds drugs is the game.
I Don't regret, I won't change this is me I have no shame.
Give me a call . Only if your ready to lose it all .

I am that feeling called pain. I'm That feeling in your guts that you can't explain. That hurt that's unbearable to hide. I'm the reason for your heart aches.That person that smiles trying to hide what's inside. I'm not visible but I'm very real nothing about me is fake.im your Deep dark secrets  that go on for miles. Trying to ignore the hurt you become in denial. I bring no happiness I fill your world with dark gray sky's.Im also part of many lies.With not a feeling of remorse. I make it rain on your  parade.when I'm around always expect the worst.Not a chance of hope I bring emptiness  to your world I'm that hurt.That cut to the wrist that cant seem to sooth what's within.I enter your life with out an invitation.Ill make you fall into depression .Im That feeling that  can cause you to go insane. Im very well known I'm  the hurt you can't explain My name is Pain.

In my hand I hold my heart.
Only to watch you take it apart.
In my mind I knew you would be mine.
Only to find out I was love blind.
In my world I only seen the sunshine never lies.
Only untill you brought the dark gray sky's.
Inside of me was happiness that I couldnt explain.
Untill you introduced to me the meaning of pain.
In my dreams you where my superman.
Until I became your victum that was your plan.
In my memory's you held me close.
Untill I seen you with another I was no longer yours.
now I look at the mirror.thanking God for he is my hero.