its 5:31am and all i can think of
is your head between my thighs
and my hands in your hair
exhaling all the bad thoughts away
as your tongue works all the
words you cant say
into my soul
S.W

and i called your number for the
first time in months
and all i heard back was
‘your call could not
be connected please check the
number and try again’ and that was
when i realised that i should live in the now
not in the then.
s.w

i remember the night you called me,
completely intoxicated by
good people and cheap alcohol,
you told me, you’d
never love anyone
as much as you
love(d)
me.
S.W

as i read the words
‘why did you have to leave?’
it was as if
i could feel
that last kiss
the day i left
all over again
S.W

its nights like these when i miss
the burning of hatred coursing
through my veins.
because right now i can’t
feel a thing not even
the clawing of need
for you.
S.W

whenever i’m in your city
i hope and pray
that i might
accidentally
run into
you.
S.W

i cried over you for the first time in 92 days 
i tried to get to 100 
but i couldn’t be stronger than 
the love i had for you.
S.W

its been 26 months since
i tasted your lips upon my own
and it’s been 26 months
since i’ve been complete.
S.W

we exchanged over 22,394 messages
and it’s been 22 months
and i’ve thought about you
more than 394 times.
S.W

you were the first boy
the first love
the first one
to come into my life
to show me you cared
to make me love someone
more than i could ever love myself
and then you broke me
but what i couldn’t see
is that i broke you  
a little too
because when i left
all of my heart stayed
with you but i took
a part of yours
except
when you stopped caring
mine shattered
into nothing
but you still remain within me
buried so deep, no one
could ever dig you up and out.
not even me.
S.W