Sameer Chhetri: Poems

At the moment

Sameer Chhetri May 2014

At the moment

if my eyes could take pictures
you'd have such beautiful pictures

written at the moment

Broken

Sameer Chhetri Jun 2014

Broken

Broken screen
Empty wallets
Broken heart
Filled lungs

dont know

Sameer Chhetri Nov 2013

dont know

don't know whats wrong with this world
animals are better then people
people are too busy to even help each other
there's swag and yolo
people want gaps between their legs
the **** life is choosing people
lady gaga is "fashion"
acting like a stripper is called twirking
twirking is called dancing
not liking rap is sth to be ashamed of
******* is considered art
literature is dead
music is dead
love is materialistic
what
is
there
to
live
for
?

finally

Sameer Chhetri Feb 2014

finally

finally got back to see the UI has changed
just like me
after this 1 month of nothing to remember
after a month of ciggrets ***** and what not
finally

finally returning to reality and facing this bliss of life
making amends starting tomorrow
no more hazy nights
and dry high days
atleast not now this time im fighting :)

came back after not being sober for a month day in and day out and today just seems like the day i let my self free and be conscious finally

i am not a strong man

Sameer Chhetri Dec 2013

i am not a strong man

no im not a strong man
its because i dont stand by my rules
i tell people to open up
i tell them to live
but when it comes to myself ? nop
when people are low i tell them to cheer up
but when it comes to me? nop

maybe its because i dont want to change my self completely
may be im just to ignorant
i dont know what it exactly is
but maybe
just maybe

i may have moved on

Sameer Chhetri Jan 2014

i may have moved on

i may have moved on
from so many things
moved on from searching the phone early in the morning just to say good morning
moved on from waking up late just to say good night
moved on from thinking about puppies and mini coopers

but in soo many ways i have not
i still cant help my self and flinch at the site of you
i still cant control my self from looking at the direction from where your name was called
nor can i forget the times we spent in the places we went

we may not be what we used to be
we may not see each other in the same light
but you better not think that i have antipathy for you
because we both know im still your friend

irretrievably

Sameer Chhetri Dec 2013

irretrievably

ive fallen for you
irretrievable , unconditionally and hopelessly
i can close my eyes and remember the way the patterns are arranged
in your eyes , forming that crisp hazel
breathtaking and hauntingly beautiful eyes of yours
i can even see your smell
it creates this image of purple lavender flowers and sandalwood

yes i have
   ive fallen for you
       irretrievable ,
unconditionally
                and
hopelessly.

I saw a teacher smoking

Sameer Chhetri Sep 2013

I saw a teacher smoking

i saw a teacher smoking
and thought of mischievous things to say
he looked at me embarrassingly
so i just walked away

I still cant do that

Sameer Chhetri Jan 2014

I still cant do that

i still cant turn my back away and act as if i didn't hear,
your name when someone shows a hint of resentment towards you
but i don't fight no more instead i just simply walk away
even if it means leaving the warmth of the library in the chills of january
sitting alone in the benches with no one to talk to

i cannot stand it yet i cannot do anything about it
its just not who i am
i just cant do it
i just cant do it

when i heard a couple of girls back bite about her

its been

Sameer Chhetri Sep 2013

its been

its been 4 years since i last fought with someone physically
3 years since any major accident
24 months since i traveled somewhere out of the country
17 months since i made a dairy entry
20 weeks since the last time i drank
12 weeks cince i last drove somewhere myself
95 days since i last went for a swim
67 days since i've cooked my egg chili special
but its only been 670 hrs that ive met you,
20hrs that i last saw you
and only 138 mins since i last heard your voice
and strangely its the thing i miss the most

i wish i could stop time

Sameer Chhetri Oct 2013

i wish i could stop time

i wish i could stop time
and just freeze it
this moment , your smile
just capture and seize it
i wish i could enjoy every drop of happiness
i could in some way store every
bewitching detail
that has
soo easily
made me fall in love
with you
i wish i could record the moment you told me " i love you "
and play it
rewind it
replay it
i wish
i wish ..........................

nicotine

Sameer Chhetri Oct 2013

nicotine

i think i realise what cigarette quitters feel like
but they've got it easier for them
if they decide again not to quit
then they can just go buy a pack
or if they do decide to continue
they could get patches to help them

but this...
trying to dose down / quit on this seems
so very hard
so very very hard

no sleep

Sameer Chhetri Jan 2014

no sleep

the happy feelings stitched to going to sleep
has slowly been ripping off
ever so subtly, small stitches thread by thread
not taking the sleeping pills because
its going to make me feel guilty the very next day
all of the feelings that didnt exist
fading one by one
try and hold on to the bits and pieces though you know its not going to last
giving your self false hopes to stand on
hiding the fact that
the mind wants to go on
but , the body wants to quit

poems

Sameer Chhetri Mar 2014

poems

i wrote so many poems
in my mind , in my phone on the walls
on the desk in the sand
yeah .poems .

sameer

Sameer Chhetri Dec 2014

sameer

sameer is niice
sameer's glasses are nice too.
but sameer's moja-topi
is not very cool.
sameer is a sucker,
because he read this poem.
the time is over bye.

smoking

Sameer Chhetri Dec 2013

smoking

a friend of mine asked me if i smoked
a past that i had long forgotten
it reminded me of the hollow friendship
the reasons id find just to burn up
just to forget the bitter reality for a min or five

but the friends were forgotten and so was the habit
yeah it does make me nostalgic
but no i wouldnt go back
it didnt bring me any happieness
nop wont go back

sometimes i

Sameer Chhetri Nov 2013

sometimes i

sometimes i just dont wanna get out of my bed
don't wanna brush my teeth and take a shower
dont wanna go to school and put up with some peoples *******
dont wanna take that bike and ride on
dont wanna do the homeworks that make no sense
dont wanna be ready or plan for the future ahead
but then theres this part of me
that lives in that yellow house
that makes me ,
that makes me want to get out of my bed early and say good morning
brush my teeth ,take a shower and put up with that crap
take my bike and ride slowly planning for the future
and write poems that will make no sense even the next day
sometimes............

sometimes life sucks

Sameer Chhetri Oct 2013

sometimes life *****

sometimes life *****
its full of stupid things that make you irritated
mostly the things include yourself
like why don't i have the guts to jump off the window
why when i want to use it the blade thats been sitting beside the bed is not sharp enough
why when you think that things are going good
something has to makes it all
bad
but then when you give yourself time
you realise that its not gonna be that bad always
and then you realize the things that you have to live up to
that someone is waiting for you to go all through this
and someday be there when you need them
for some it may be their crush , some their girlfriend
to some the husband whose gone to serve the army
to some a single mom who is waiting for her son to grow up and take care of her
and when they realise this
then that sometimes wont seem to hard

to anyone whose feeling low
realise that there is someone thats waiting for you to go through this so just hold on even if you feel like letting go :)

suicide

Sameer Chhetri Nov 2013

suicide

suicide comes a lot to mind
when every thing you hope for
nothings good not even your time
you hate the bed and love the floor
its like you want to live no more

this is not a suicide note just a poem :\ because im a coward

The 2 shitty years i want to make better

Sameer Chhetri Aug 2013

The 2 ****** years i want to make better

to the one girl
whose smile i found so bright
until i realise her heart was broken
in 3 pieces to be precise

the one whose lost all confidence , keeps the doors to happiness shut
just resenting the past
but now's the present , live in it
Squeeze every boon of happiness, there might be non tomorrow

or.. or you can just let it bother u
for 2 full years
which is in fact the prime time which you'll remember either ;
fun , laughter , happiness and glee
or just books and plain misery

but if you cant take it
and its just too hard.
Hey!, ill be there in the end
because im here in the start

what i see

Sameer Chhetri Oct 2013

what i see

what i see
in you is hard to explain
in those dark hazel eyes that I so easily get lost in
with every call , every txt every chat ,
while tucking the hair that blocks your view
not looking directly,but peeking at times
i dont know if its that;
that personality that aura that vibe
that makes every one happier around you
or that feel you give me
of wanting to sing every time

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