what i see
in you is hard to explain
in those dark hazel eyes that I so easily get lost in
with every call , every txt every chat ,
while tucking the hair that blocks your view
not looking directly,but peeking at times
i dont know if its that;
that personality that aura that vibe
that makes every one happier around you
or that feel you give me
of wanting to sing every time

ive fallen for you
irretrievable , unconditionally and hopelessly
i can close my eyes and remember the way the patterns are arranged
in your eyes , forming that crisp hazel
breathtaking and hauntingly beautiful eyes of yours
i can even see your smell
it creates this image of purple lavender flowers and sandalwood

yes i have
   ive fallen for you
       irretrievable ,
unconditionally
                and
hopelessly.

its been 4   years since i last fought with someone physically
3 years since any major accident
24 months since i traveled somewhere out of the country
17 months since i made a dairy entry
20 weeks since the last time i drank
12 weeks cince i last drove somewhere myself
95 days since i last went for a swim
67 days since i've cooked my egg chili special
but its only been 670 hrs that ive met you,
20hrs that i last saw you
and  only 138 mins since i last heard your voice
and strangely its the thing i miss the most

sometimes life *****
its full of stupid things that make you irritated
mostly the things include yourself
like why don't i have the guts to jump off the window
why when i want to use it the blade thats been sitting beside the bed is not sharp enough
why when you think that things are going good
something has to makes it all
bad
but then when you give yourself time
you realise  that its not gonna be that bad always
and then you realize the things that you have to live up to
that someone is waiting for you to go all through this
and someday be there when you need them
for some it may be their crush , some their girlfriend
to some the husband whose gone to serve the army
to some a single mom who is waiting for her son to grow up and take care of her
and when they realise this
then that sometimes wont seem to hard

sometimes i just dont wanna get out of my bed
don't wanna brush my teeth and take a shower
dont wanna go to school and put up with some peoples *******
dont wanna take that bike and ride on
dont wanna do the homeworks that make no sense
dont wanna be ready or plan for the future ahead
but then theres this part of me
that lives in that yellow house
that makes me ,
that makes me want to get out of my bed early and say good morning
brush my teeth ,take a shower and put up with that crap
take my bike and ride slowly planning for the future
and write poems that will make no sense even the next day
sometimes............