sometimes life *****
its full of stupid things that make you irritated
mostly the things include yourself
like why don't i have the guts to jump off the window
why when i want to use it the blade thats been sitting beside the bed is not sharp enough
why when you think that things are going good
something has to makes it all
bad
but then when you give yourself time
you realise  that its not gonna be that bad always
and then you realize the things that you have to live up to
that someone is waiting for you to go all through this
and someday be there when you need them
for some it may be their crush , some their girlfriend
to some the husband whose gone to serve the army
to some a single mom who is waiting for her son to grow up and take care of her
and when they realise this
then that sometimes wont seem to hard

what i see
in you is hard to explain
in those dark hazel eyes that I so easily get lost in
with every call , every txt every chat ,
while tucking the hair that blocks your view
not looking directly,but peeking at times
i dont know if its that;
that personality that aura that vibe
that makes every one happier around you
or that feel you give me
of wanting to sing every time

its been 4   years since i last fought with someone physically
3 years since any major accident
24 months since i traveled somewhere out of the country
17 months since i made a dairy entry
20 weeks since the last time i drank
12 weeks cince i last drove somewhere myself
95 days since i last went for a swim
67 days since i've cooked my egg chili special
but its only been 670 hrs that ive met you,
20hrs that i last saw you
and  only 138 mins since i last heard your voice
and strangely its the thing i miss the most