deep sleep dreams
Consist of you… i tried so hard to fall asleep with thoughts of something new but here we go…. changing again. leaving behind the old attitude to find a better one. here she is. summer samber… and i hope your happy because this girl has four hearts begging for her attention. im giving it to him. to the one who wants it not the others who need it. But my God do i wish you wanted it. i wish you wanted just me. big brown eyes glisten wth a smile at the thought of you and your love. so hurt.

sleep in daysleeper
and enjoy the dreams of an uneasy soul. your restless spirit has turned my heart into a useless one. im taking this night to wash my life clean of your love. deep sleep. one night of easy unbothered sleep. and i will leave you in my dreams. where you belong. “always and forever” my heart will always welcome you home. but only my heart. my soul is tired of holding on so tight. february. it will NOT be memories of us. i will make new memories. better ones :) my life is oh so good. in someone elses arms <3 someone who WANTS me. and i want him. so dont wake up anytime soon. stay asleep and oblivious to my happiness. enjoy your dreams my daysleeper. ill meet you in that field of tall grass and YOUR corner. where ill be yours forever. in deep sleep dreams

Pushing bodies to walls wrapping legs around a waist pulling you into me nails scratching skin causing chills kissing tender warmth shaking innocense with each gasping breath taking love and turning it into ***** secrets holding back screams of honesty as his fingers ran all over steaming pleasure whispering the dirtiest truths in hungry eyes satisfaction running through every bone pain in all the right places. love in all the wrong ones.

i dont think
That i’ve ever loved you more than when you turned away. and walked out of my life. i never thought that this life was possible but the sound of your voice was my music. a pathetic poet sleeping away memories of better days in a sun bathed bed crying out brilliant ideas. ideas of humid air and sweet tanned skin radiating heat and pool water. simple kisses and rough sheet pulling. strong arms holding a temporary happiness. the words wrapping around intwined bodies. *** passing time proving love. opening eyes to monsters we cant run from.

Dec.22.09 midnight. the answers are all so complicated but all i want is for you to bring me your love tonight. to come and lay where you belong. im not at all alright, maybe i’d be okay of you came home. came to claim your heart in my hands. oh this is hard to put in a box and hide in my closet. i bet anything if i let your love overwhelm me i’d burst. im unraveling in your words. without you by my side i cant even close my eyes. sleep takes me to the scariest places. places you dont exist. the places i enjoy are the places where you want me. not where you need me. i’ll let your words mix up my already lost mind because its easier to not try. maybe it will be hard no matter what. i long to be in your arms consumed with beating hearts of summer. simple gestures your spilling out with lies of truth. i would do anything if i could lose myself in the moments you have given me. your steady breathing would be the only tempo we’d need your words the only music i’d need to be content with the song of you and i. my words seem so unorganized with you influencing them. bring me your love tonight. maybe just maybe ill be able to sleep… but then again probably not. i’d be to afraid you’d leave.

Dec.20.09
sentences formulated with words you’ve stolen from a writer better than you’ll ever be.
the sunshine reflecting off your skin with flecks of memories you used to carry so close to heart.

a setting sun washing away memories into colors of orange and red. words replacing a silence i was enjoying. the silence i always enjoyed. your showing me the only way out and im doing everything but taking it. today something changed. im pushing you into a part of my heart i no longer have to listen to.

it was you.
our selfish tendencies create and everlasting attraction we refuse to face.
dec.18
cold mornings. a sun never rising to warm you up on these rainy days. your beating heart is inconsistent with the tempo of your words. distant reminders breaking sound waves of my “remember when” ideas. built of days when heat consumed our souls, the shade gave us privacy, and the cool air gave us peace.
all thats in your soul is now so desperatly clinging onto whats left of your heart. the beautiful part is washed away and hidden under your bed. hidden with the rest of your heart. the pieces that were so meaningful to me. nothing but another empty body for life. the life that that was offered to you is now bringing breath into other weightless hearts making them as heavy as ours. i wouldnt need you if i didnt love you so much. no one comes close to this confused mind. no one will ever come close. individuals we convince ourselves to be but would we be here lying to everyone if we were so independent? please dont repeat the processes of love with anyone as dishonest as your self.