this is for you

when you lie because telling the truth never got you anywhere,
when you forgot to do your homework,
when your friends forgot to invite you,
when That One Kid thinks it’s hilarious to make you uncomfortable,
when you have a ****** audition,
when you have to make a Big Decision,
when someone else makes a Big Decision, and you come out on bottom,
when you feel like you aren’t everything you could be,
when you let your Grade Point Average define who you are,
when you finally get what you want, and people tell you that you don’t deserve it,
when you want to care, you really do, but you can’t,
when you don’t meet Their Expectations,
when you don’t have the spare cash to go see a movie,
when your prayers go unanswered,
when you try to create something beautiful and it ends up ****,

this is for you
for when you aren’t what they
want,
deem acceptable,
or even deserve.

this is for you and all of your shortcomings
because we all have them.

are you angry?
that my life not longer revolves around you?

that,
i’ve traded my longing for you in
for a real relationship
with someone else?

are you angry?
are you bothered?
that i finally know who i am
that i can finally exist
without you?

are you angry?
that i don’t dream about you anymore?
that your lips are someone else’s and
i wouldn’t have it any other way?

are you angry?
that i’m okay?
that i’ve grown up?
that i’ve moved on?

are you angry?*

(good.)