When I look into your eyes,
I see the pain you try to hide.
You try to be tough,
But the pain shows
The hurting,
And the suffering that this is causing you
Although you act as if nothing is wrong,
The pain shows
You try to be brave
You try to hide the tears
But the pain shows
Who knew looking into your eyes would reveal so much pain

Maybe we had it better than I thought
Maybe I became too wrapped up in what we didn't have. I lost sight of the good things we did have.

       You give me a feeling I haven't experienced yet.
Not a great one nor an awful one, but one that has me baffled.

I’m so conflicted and I don’t know what to do
I just can’t stop myself because I’m always craving you
I feel like I’m being pulled in opposite directions

I act like I know my own mind.
But after some reflection, now I’m starting to question
And no answers can I find

Why do I do this to myself?
I read it
I knew what it consisted of and yet I still read it
I've known about it for awhile
But, today it's like I needed to read it
My stomach has never been so tense nor has it had feelings that weighed so heavy inside
Why do I feel this way?
Why does it even matter?
In the end,
I needed to knock some sense into my own head
My thoughts were going to far, they were becoming out of control
In a way, it helped me