Sometimes...

I don't like you very much

That is all

you are one I will never miss
I will never sit in the bathroom late at night and cry quietly because you are here
there will never be a moment in my life when I stop and wonder what has happened to you, or if you will return

you will never be given the chance to cage my heart or clip my wings
because I have already left you far behind

I will never have my words stolen by you
Or feel helpless because I can not escape you
I will fly higher and faster then you ever let me believe I could

you will never constrict my imagination of what is possible
Or draw lines in the sand I should not cross

your criticism will never silence me
for I am an artist
and you..

you are nothing
but my fear of failure

I'm still awake

the clock is ticking its nearly six

I'm watching the numbers change slowly

one by one

were coming close to seven now

I blink and wonder where the time has gone

where that hour has gone

have I slept?

...no this is no dream

Kissed me on the playground

And again out in the street

Kissed me on her door step

And once more down on the beach

Another kiss at sunset

A secret one in the woods

A soft one in her bedroom before we went to sleep

She kissed me between her ropes and snares

She kissed me when I bled

She didn’t kiss me when I pleaded

Not even when I wept

I kissed her for her nightmares

I kissed her for her charm

Sadly she didn’t kiss me before I slipped from her arms

I still remember those kisses

And how my blood stained red the snow

But you’ll never find me back there

Not for all the sweet memories in the world

Hum... rattle, rattle
Lift eyes from the floor
Up through scratched windows

Who scratches windows?
Another fence

Hiss... doors open again
Uninterested...
Hiss... and closed

No time for your fellow man here
Wondering about those scratches still

Another passing, eyes on the floor
Interesting...
Far more so then them
Temporary companions

Another fence, with bars this time
Hiss... doors open again
...Strange
Hiss... and closed

Scratched windows pass by them
Seriously who scratches windows?

Unkempt yards, barking dogs
More temporary companions

This is my stop
Eyes still on the floor
Uninterested

Hiss... doors open once more
Eyes leave the floor finding only ground
Hiss... and closed again

Scratched windows passing by
Still no answer for that
Hum... rattle, rattle

its not your words exactly
more like the way they touch my skin
like fingers in my hair

its listening to your voice whispering
makes everything ok again

all those little things you do but never notice
things I count like stars, beautiful

your words touch like kisses against my skin
only matched when I can press my self into your arms

I'd like to return your kisses
whisper soft romance that would make the stars blush

please keep them
until we are together again

I promise I have all of yours
come closer and I'll tell you what it feels like

everything will be ok
you'll understand

I love you
but there no need to say it

you already know
your soft words tell me so

The time that passed between the moments
Of when you looked in my direction
But I again glanced away unseen
Your words whispered in the late of night
While I all knowing waited, silent and observing
Until once again I see you return
Across my horizon