Not so ******* the outside
As being inside
Where monsters play

But this now
Again struck with temptation

No rule book to guild them
Or chains to bind them

Just eyes burning
Deep as cattle brands
With distrust

And lust
All those voices crying
I must, I must

Retreat back
Safety in numbers

Now only shadow bars
Crossing over
Back and shoulders

As I move forward
Out into the light
Of freedom

Hard won
After I lost
Just one fight

I, am an invisible post office

A trader of words
The journals to graffiti wall work

Modern yellowed pages
Of forgotten letters

In back rooms
Desk drawers
Old books with dog eared pages

Taking in all of these
Sending them on

Watching the forgotten word spread
A verbal wild fire

Doors close
The invisible post office
Is heading for the next station

You scared?
No...
Liar
I know...

But dreams can't last forever
As I thought once upon a time
When your heart held mine

Tears fell only to be wiped away
By your hand
Now gone

As I, breath in the lonely darkness
Of the room that was
At one point ours
But now mine alone

And you
Of course have gone
As only dreams do

Leaving me
Eye to eye
With my fear

Of life
Without you

A million perfect moments in time and everything else is just dust in the wind
Bird wings beating at the air every heart moving as one
To take a breath and know that across the world half of every other living thing is breathing with you
A speck in the universal tides to be snuffed out and never known
Impossible to catch even a second of time where everything is perfectly still
Equally as impossible to have anything in constant motion
The same motion that we are constantly part of
One life falls into the next as the sun follows the moon

Touch of insomnia
It's nearly 3 am
Sleeps not getting any closer
And I havent got a friend

There no one waiting for my calls
Just bad dreams of **** school halls

Retreat to the safety of a computer screen
Watch the little lights on the modem blink green
Boot up log in, disappear to hide from alone
Drown feeling in pixels all identical

Every site another chorus of broken hearts
To much like real life
Again I'm fleeing my own thoughts
Scared to listen

Instead, wandering down a long list of user names
(6-6) in every room I pass

Near the bottom and close to the end
Stopping, eyes catching
(1-6) all alone

Breath held, hand shaking
Feeling stupid, there's no risk I'm taking

Computer screens can't see who sits on this side
Maybe though.. they're alone too and I wont have to hide

You're two spaces from me
As my game starts, we sit silently

Cursor blinking slowly in the little text box
Fear creeping up my neck

Question hanging, to say something or just hold back
Took just a second, only three keys to press

"Hi", started it all and I'll never go back
From what if's and maybe's
To being your baby

It's been so long together, that we cant be apart
My soulmate...
I cant believe we met on a puzzle board

Blue and purple patterned upwards
From wrist to elbow
Fine as ivy

Green and yellow discoloration creeping inwards
As roses do when wilting

Her sleeve pulled lower
Hiding her tragic secret under faded cotton
Passing eyes dont question

Knuckles lined, an old road map of aggression
White scars criss cross over old breaks

She was a fighter
And sometimes she lost

Bleep! Bleep!
Hello?

Wrinkles slacks sagging
Cheap suit two sizes to small
Pulling tight across shoulders and distended stomach

A pass over from the last funeral
Or maybe just stolen from one

Scuffed shoes and an army hair cut
Dollar store frames carving a trench in the soft bridge of his nose
Fat fingers clutching desperately at the latest piece of over priced technology

More important than a tie without orange juice stains
Obviously...