What is the number one cause of major depression?
Death of a parent before the age of ten.
A youtube video told me that.
Which means I'm ******.
My dad died when I was 5.
Leukemia.
He had fought valiantly for years.
And when they thought it was gone it came back.
That was 15 years ago.
I still miss him.
I wrote this for him.
I always will love him.

I have waited for this day for about a year,
and my head is full of fears
but when you are near
I hope that my head is clear
I won't be drowning underwater,
when I am on land
but I'll be by a beach
where I'll lay on the sand
listen to the ocean waves
and be comfortable with not having anything to say
because in that moment I'd like to think that things will be okay
so in a couple hours I'll be on an airplane
in the sky on my way to you
find out if the feelings are true
if we are the people we thought we knew
I need this vacation
I need this time
I'm ready to be by your side
I've waited and counted till today
and this feeling isn't something I can explain
I guess I'll see what happens
the greatest surprise I've experienced so far
truly to find out where we are
when all we want to do is run away
from the lives that we live day to day
maybe we can actually pull this off
or we will have to face the facts and accept the reality
I guess I will find out and see

I was born a tiny little girl
not much about that has changed in my world.
I am still as tiny as can be
but my heart is so large that the whole world can see.
I put myself out there to help as many as I can
but at times it makes it very hard to stand.
I love everything the world has to show
the earth,the wild, the wonderful snow.
All I see and all I feel,
I offer to others so they can heal.