Everyone say's I push them away, but truth be told i pull myself in.
Protecting myself, so it will never happen again.
Opening myself up and letting people in is something I can not do, I can try but it's never really true.
They'll never really know the real me inside, because I'm alway's locked within my own mind.

I've found myself awakening in a city of corpses.
Everywhere I turn I see these fragile creatures that once held a soul, lived a life with someone they held dear.
I look but there's no light in there eyes, nothing that makes them unique and separates one from the other.
I need to find a way out, I search for an escape but come up empty.
It's sickening!
It's getting harder and harder to breath.
I've stopped looking for a way out.
It's pointless, for one day I will be just like them.
Soulless bones rotting on the cold hard ground.
This is inevitable, so why leave?
I think I will just lay here and wait, I'm tired of searching!!!

The words that are left unspoken,
are the ones that leave you broken.
Climbing these walls for answers,
you're a simpleton, you look down and fall.
You've forgotten what's important.
The essential piece of your self you call true,
it's nothing but lies
you simple minded fraud,
ego doesn't hold the truth.
So shove down those words,
god forbid they were to come out,
people may scream or shout.
Choke them down you insignificant fool,
bury everything inside yourself so you can't feel.
The only way you know how to deal.

Sometimes life throws you curve ball's
and nothing he does seems fair,
we know we have a lot of differences
but with a dad's love who cares?

Sometimes it doesn't seem like he understands
and it's difficult to relate,
but with a big bear hug and a look into his eyes,
some of the pain seems to go away.

We don't always have similar points of view
and we might disagree and shout,
yet when the day is over
our love will work it out.

It's hard to reach a common ground when the road is so rough
it may feel like he is always against me,
but the truth is,
with every day that passes by he loves me more than enough.

Yes life throws curve *****
but one thing is for sure,
My dad is more than just a dad
he is a daughter's cure!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY BEAR, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER EXPRESS!!!!

I know thing's are difficult
and decisions are hard to make
but never get discouraged
only you can choose your fate.

I'm always here to help you
know matter how bumpy the road get's
I'm a very stubborn person
and I will never let you quit.

One day we will look back on this
and we will laugh at the mistakes
we will be able to say we made it
and the outcome look's great.

We've fought before
but nothing like this
your actions hurt me
but so did your fists

You'd never really touch me
but that shows me you could
now ask yourself this
in a mind state like that, does it make you think you should?

That's not what hurt the worst
it was your words that cut like daggers
for the first time in my life
made me feel like our relationship don't matter

How do we move on from here?
It's been hard to look at you the same
talking to other people
I can't even say your name

I'm not saying it will be easy
but we will get back to normal
one day we'll look back and with a laugh
we'll just say it was hormonal

There once lived a girl
all alone in the world,
with no one to call a family
she has no place to call a home
like I said, she's all alone
and this story of her's is a tragedy.

Wandering the streets
with nothing to eat
to the side walk is where she retreats.
Yet food is a must
this life is a bust
but this girl will not face defeat.

She's been searching for her mother for years
the only person she truly holds dear.
She can't face the fact that her mother abandoned her
for mother is god in a child's eyes
but her mother didn't care if she lived or died.

So she continues walking
down these dark and dangerous streets
looking around she see's nothing but creeps
they offer her a place to stay
but she's not stupid, she runs away.

This girl is older now
and has changed her life.
She went to school
and fought a good fight.

She has a home now and a family of her own
letting go of her past...letting EVERYTHING go.
Her family is all she need's to know!

Dedicated in a cryptic way to my amazing and kind hearted  mother of whom I love very much!