I was said something that hurt you,
I admits that.

I knew the day you run away from me,
It means you really mad at me.

I knew that i acrossed the line too far,
That somehow i forgot i'm just your friend who should make you happy at school.

Instead,
I broke your heart.
I knew you still mad at me.

If you knew me for a very long time,
I've ever been in this situation before.

Mad and being mad at my friend.
I've never say "forgive me" when it comes a bad situation to me tbh.

Somehow i feels so ashamed to say something like that,
Cause deep down in my heart there's a big ego.
That's why i've hadn't say so to you till now.

But maybe if you see this.
I hope someday you'll understand that,
I wouldn't break yours anymore.

I feels sorry about me.
I might never knew if you like me or not,
But somehow it felt like it is.
We both might used to liked each others. Or at least i was.
But between me and you just never really happen,
But i really wish it could be.

It makes me feel guilty till now,
On how you still looks at me like i used to do.

I don't know what does it mean,
But,
If you still has that feeling,
Could you please forgive me,
Forgive me for being  a coward,
Because i was too scared to tell you that i like you.

This is Heart reply to Brain.

Dear Brain,
I knew you could control me for not falling to somebody but you couldn't control me really well.
Instead, you make it even worse.
You dreaming and make your own dream with someone that i love.

You tried to make your dream feels better when this body close her eyes.
But you kills me slowly when this body open her eyes.

You dreamt about it like would be really happen to us,
But it just unfair for her to make her forget that she just a 17 years old girl with no lover.

Could you please fix your ownself and stop making that stupid dream.
If you already fix yourself then learn how to control me really well.
Because it's the truly key and the real function of us to her.

We could talk about it more again someday.

Self reminder to you, that you could make me better without even paying something.

Have to know you for a very long time.
Ever met you before this time.
Should be behaved better around you but i messed it up.
Should make you comfortable around me but i messed it up.

Intend to be your friend but i couldn't show you my good side.
Tried to talk first to you but i sounds ugly to talk with you.
Should understand that you're in a relationship but i took a hope too much.
Could be normal but i couldn't do it all the time.

Ever you loved somebody,
Then they left you.
And suddenly you feels lost enough,
To think that you meet your ex-lover in different body and soul?
Well, i did

Yesterday, June 13rd.
It actually just a usually day.
But if could look back a year ago in the same date, it is an unpreparable heart-break.

I didn't realized that i should celebrated your bereaved.
I wish i could turn back time and celebrate it with my ownself.

Remembering everything that ever happened in that day.
Remembering on what did do you to me even actually i always remember about that.
Remembering on what did you wore that day even i always miss your cute little maroon sweater.
Remembering on how you asked me nicely while usually you don't.
Remembering on how we walked together to the outside of the building.
Remembering on how nerveous we were in that test.
Tried to know your street address while you looking through your phone.

Remembering on everything.

Everything..

Even i just have a chanced to see your face in real time just 9 months.
But, gee...
That was a great months,
The days that always made me light-hearted to go there.

Just because i wanna see you.

And i really hope that i could say something before i knew that you're no longer not excited to came here again.

And i just wanted you to know that i still counting days since you leaving.

This is Brain talk to Heart.

Dear Heart,
You've been doing amazing for a very long time.
I understand you've been suffer so much.
Somehow i knew you wanted to stop falling.
But, don't you dare to do it.
Don't you dare to stop falling to somebody you could love the most.

Once you stop,
It would be hard for you to start again.

I knew you always wanted to be loved.
Maybe you just tired for just loving without being loved.
But i assure you,
You'll be fine.

Heart,
If i could make you feel better and pay for it, i would.