They say
I'm always there
For you
But
I haven't.
I left you, for
Years

I haven't done
Anything but
Stand there

My attempts to
Save you
Have only
Deepened the wound

You're strong,
Very.

I just hope,
In your current state,
You'd still make it through
Morning

I'm sorry
I've failed you again.
I slipped and
Let it out.

She'd probably be
Worrying now...

I was supposed to make sure
She was happy,
Okay and carefree

But
I slipped and
Who knows,
She might know.

I too hope
You will
Really
Be fine.

Oh why won't you
Let me in?
Why won't you
Let me save you?

Yes, I do love talking
To her,
Making her happy
I know you'd be happy
But
Why have you chosen

This way?

Walking through the mall,
Passing shops,
Passing thoughts,
Attempting to
Absorb everything

Keep it together, soldier

Mind racing with questions,
Heart beats faster,
Too fast
Too fast
Too fast

Shut it!

World starts to spin
Cold sweat all over
The dying feeling
Anxiety?
Depression?

Or just dying?

Slamming against wall,
Legs grow weak
Black spots sparkle across
The already dark skies

Must stand,
Must continue

Walking through the mall,
I must save the tears
Keep it for later
At home
In bed
Under the covers

Maybe you won't even have to,
They'll take over
You won't feel
Anything
Anything
Anything...

Yet you'd feel
Everything
Everything

*Everything

Trying not to do
Anything funny
Until I reach home

I stand there as they

Laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh






And I wonder,
Why can't I laugh too?

Maybe I was just
Tired of all the
Sudden temper flares,

Maybe I was just
Scared when she started
Breathing that way,

Maybe I was just
Feeling ****** the whole time
But

I just know
Today wasn't
Too good