Sometimes, only sometimes,
I can still feel you laying next to me
In the grass
Holding my hand.

Sometimes,
I can still hear your
Soft whispers in my ears.

Sometimes,
But only sometimes,
I let myself remember
Our good times.

And sometimes I miss you.
But
Only sometimes.

I am hiding
In my own small cave
I will not come out
I will not leave this shell of me

I am to remain here for as long as I can
I do not want to face the open breeze
The air is too cold
The earth is too cruel

In my cave I am safe
No one can get to me here
No one can hurt me

But safe does not always mean happy
Should I choose to forsake my cave
To forsake my safety

I am in a cave
It is dark and lonely
Lonely and safe from heartache

Decide today that there is something great.

Should I ask you about your love and life;

Would you rather I talk about your hate?

On the morrow the day will end in strife.

There will be a time when you will shine.

By chance the end will not come in the dark.

There is one that I know wants to be mine.

When you got to this place there was a spark

I wished for this moment of the long day

Where I could sit and ponder at your words.

Now that this is the time we shall delay

All of those times that get cut into thirds.

But you now are so gone, you are not here

The person I once knew will disappear.

I have done this one too many times
Over and over
The same words repeated

You say I don't love you

I say you don't love me
Not the way I love you
Not the way I do

My heart beats for you
I was made to be yours
You
Were supposed to be
The sun that lights the day
The flower among the sharp thorns

Now there is no sun
There are no flowers
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You left me
Heart
Soul
Mind

You left me
Fragmentary

And you expected me to be okay
Without a word
No apology

When we are together
You are not there

You resolved to be by my side
With your body
But not mind

There was no intentionality

Our time has been squandered
And there is no remorse in your eyes
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