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Sep 2018 · 226
PTSD
sadgabs Sep 2018
when you’re tired of learning the same lessons over in life, give me a call
can you catch yourself when no one is around with open arms when you fall?
you used to have it all, I wonder why’d you risk it all
it’s been years and here’s this big *** burden I still haul

how’d I carry the weight of you when I couldn’t hold myself
how did I help you, I was the help that felt the need to help you out
giving away my last, I watched myself deteriorate and melt
I was no longer the head, suddenly I became the tail

this is the tale of a young girl who threw everything good in her life away
you reap what you sew but I never thought I’d pay
I threw myself away, got down with the dogs there I laid
with a man I loved and sold my soul for him to take
Sep 2018 · 249
Fakhir
sadgabs Sep 2018
to my heart, that I never want to grow apart from
whose love makes me weak
and affection makes me numb
I’ve found my forever, I no longer seek to run
you’ve became the sun to my light and the beat to my drum

how do I know I want you forever, without a doubt?
why do I love your unconditional love that never droughts?
I know I can count on you to make me smile when I pout
I know you’ll still be around when I’m doing bad and I’m down and out

what’s love? I can’t put my finger on it but I love the feeling
you make me feel alive, you give me reason
I’m more than content with what I have, I won’t be cheatin
you’re the season that doesn’t change, it keeps repeating
And I’m always craving for your touch, you got me feenin

I’ve watched you grow in such little time
I’m proud of your accomplishments, ecstatic to call you mine
you’re more than a dime
you’re so **** fine
I got nothing to hide
baby you make me feel alive

when you need someone, just know that I got you
I’m here to rock your world when your days seem blue
and when this feels like this all too good to be true
I’ll reassure my boo as much as you need me to

When I saw you shed a tear the other day, it hurt me inside
If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, you got mine for life
I know your life won’t always be as high as a kite
But as long we got each other and God, we’ll be alright️

I had a first boyfriend but the “love” wasn’t real
How have I only knew you for 5 months and I’m head over heels?
You always look out, made sure I never missed a meal
I’ve been so ****** up but you’ve helped me heal

What’s a first love? Not what I had before.
I’m glad I let old **** go and God opened new doors
to you, my lover, my friend, my world
standing 10 toes tall, proud to be your girl

afraid to say but you’re my first love.
first to make me feel like I’m more than enough.
first to love me for who I am and never gave a ****
about my difficult situations when I didn’t have any luck

thanks for always being here for me and hugging me when I need it the most
thanks for always being the person I could run to
for holding me so close
thanks for always showing me that I mean the most
I can never get enough of you and your love, I need an endless dose


I’ve never felt this way about anyone before
pouring endless love into you,
I want to give you more and more
I’m in love with everything about you
your heart is extremely pure
there’s no more hurting in this world
you became my cure

I don’t care about being your first, just your last
I don’t care what happened before, the past is the past
happy birthday to my first love that arrived so intense and fast
I love you baby, I pray that we can make it last

-gab
Jul 2018 · 164
contradicting
sadgabs Jul 2018
I am love
I always give but never receive it
without knowing it,
how can I be it?
Feb 2018 · 164
awake in a daze
sadgabs Feb 2018
if I sit with my legs open, don't assume
that I want a *** interaction between me and you
when I bend over, I might be picking up a spoon
don't surprise me from behind and do something cruel
if I'm high or intoxicated, don't take advantage of me
please don't escort me anywhere where I can not see
please don't make me into the person that I know I wouldn't be
God when I'm not okay, please watch after me
when I tell you my stories, please don't use them for evil
don't be the break to my heart but the thread to my needle
all my secrets I tell, promise you'll keep em
and when my world is crushed, my feelings you'll feed em
I just want an ear, not to be an opportunity
not the girls the get solicited in the community
from being vulnerable and naive
telling people their info thinking they care
to wolves in sheep clothing who are honestly mean
love isn't in the air
If I'm ugly and not cute, do I still get a chance?
do you want emotion and not whatever is hidden in my pants?
God do you see me on my knees praying with my hands?
I'm tired of waltzing with the devil, when's the end to this dance?
where's my family
who is Emily
on the amber alert
that comes in handy
but Brianna
who's kind of hotter
won't be found
can't dream of those fantasies
Em is white
And because I'm black
They 311 her
they cut me slack
or not so much me
but my abducter
because white america
Is a white producer
out here screaming find our girls now
when they should be at home living the life of a child
do you know what's really wild
they think these girls are running away
everything that's colored involved is a joke now
blacks smoke ****
but the whites snort *******
is there really any difference
aren't we really the same
but I'd never be lost
if I found
love a while ago
from the people who knocked me down
for mental health
is there really a cure
clinical depression
does it really hurt?
if it doesn't pain you physically, it doesn't exist
I guess I'm just fighting a battle with imaginary fists
girls prostitution don't end destitution
it's the quickest form of execution
you'll be lucky if you don't run into something wrong
Death is in the form of a *****, the offbeat that'll end the song
why doesn't anyone care about me?
where are my friends?
who can I run to
without being like the trend
a mass of teens and children, looking to be mended
out here on the streets thinking they're becoming befriended
kidney half way ****** up, only 15
with dreams of being a pornstar on a red carpet scene
because she was ***** and settled at the age of 13
and or maybe she was additionally getting beat
abused, hurt by the people she loved
This swan diminished into the ugly duck
she don't care what she do, being cared about is just luck
asking the world who really gives a ****!
my bro got killed by a white police
the black officers still stand with them on their two feet
when you ask why did this happen
they're quick to say it wasn't me
but you work with them
associate
you're guilty by me
white man dead
slained
black man dead
he's to blame
why are we unjust, still playing the race game?
when this is the 21st century
not the segregation game
if someone is sad, don't let them walk away
genuinely be there
yell have a nice day
who knows what they go through
just say hey
if you were me, you'd want to be treated the same way
Feb 2018 · 137
conflicted
sadgabs Feb 2018
it hurts to look in the mirror
I don’t understand what I see
staring at my reflection
why aren’t I who they want me to be

love is difficult
not for me
the love I give
isn’t the love I receive

— The End —