***** all my feelings up
Purge every emotion I've ever felt
Because it kills me to think
Murders me actually
To realize I'm at the bottom of your to do list
I think your soul poisoned me with your tongue
And mine never thought to try and reject the taste
Battery acid and bated breath
Was all you really gave me
In a hotel bed
With a side of longing
to crush the dreaming in my head
I guess
I wasn't enough in the end
Now our sanity
Won't have anything to hold the frayed ends together
Will they?

This throat is raw
From the fire in my heart
It scalds the esophagus
As it works its way up
And makes it hard to
Tell you the way I feel
And tasting you isn't the same
And I'm choking on every word
I didn't say
Vowels and consonants all fail me
And stupid girls
Don't win a ******* thing
Except self destruction anyway
And there ain't no gift receipt
For that

My sleep is ensnaring me
Daring me to never seek it out again
Forcing me to be apart from my family
And watching blood pour from your mouth
Over my jeans
Soaking your shirt
Into my wounds
Staining the dirt
I will howl at the moon
Until you come back to me

Darling dear, now listen here
I was put on this Earth to kiss you
As easy as breathing

But when it comes to missing you
Well I just can't take it

Thrown into a shark tank
To become a crab
Standing lines versus mad dashes through stairs
Seeing new York live and licking blood off your teeth
You’re gonna be fine
I promise, it’s me
Can we survive a round on our feet?

I closed my eyes
And it felt like all the streetlights had been extinguished
The ground I walked on
Made me squeamish
I turn the ignition to turn up at your door
Just to kiss you
And tell you I love you more

I’m one of those little ducks in grease
Drowning in a sea of you and me
I can hear the static falling
Snap crackle popping in my brain
Waiting to dive back into my body
I’ll never feel at home again
My bloods on the side walk
My hearts on the corner
Don’t revisit me