nothingness buzzes—
static sharp—
from a box screen
the galaxy spins
around my legs, arms, chest

take me with you.

I don’t want the curtains to close
The shows not over
You’re my love-
Say I”m yours
Its so hard to give up
Hold on-
Shelter me from my mind.

You’re my love-
Say I’m yours

How are you willing to give yourself to me?
I can’t seem to get close
limbs frozen solid
Im terrified to be so open

But you’re so warm
Melt me
Arms wrap and scorch my waist
******* lips
Im still so terrified.

I hate this game
To stagnate to move
To care-
So why are my eyes leaking?
Why is my throat raw?

What is this?
You’re a moonbeam-
It’s so blinding
So binding

Seep through the cracks of my skin
Gnaw at my veins
My heartbeat slows.
Can you feel it?

Tell me we’re alright?

i want to fly away
far far away
if i close my eyes i can feel it
my arms shifting, breaking apart
morphing, forming-
into mangled raven wings
the window calls for me
i'm flying-
flying-
my wings are gone.

The ceiling looks down
corroded, broken, messy
eyes look up
glassy, lifeless, empty

Is it over yet?

Please
I can’t stand it
Where are you? Where am I?
I can’t commit to anything

Help me
Can’t you—

can you see through my chest?
the bathroom floor waiting for me
the box of razors below my bed
is it enough for you to leave me?
baby, are you leaving?

sit on the tiles.
water falls as time
slips away -
drifts down the drain -

would i feel the same if i floated away?
where am i?
did the world pass me by?

should i be gone?

I think my lungs are giving up

In
Out
In
Out

They’re tired.
I am tired.

I think I’m giving up.

When will this end?
Is it too good for me to last?
Why do you love me?
When are you leaving?

Can you see me?
Im looking, but the world blends away.
There’s so much on my mind.
What about you?

Baby-
What are you thinking?
Why is it so hard to live in this moment?
What are you thinking?
Where did you go?
Are you still here?

I love you, baby-
What are you thinking?

are you
for real?