My scars were everywhere,

Inside and out.

Painted with razors and words.

the sheen in your eyes
when you looked at me
was gone

you no longer cared
when I talked about
the things I loved

your touches became cold
and I started to freeze
even while under your blankets

my voice became a whisper
and I got lost
in the wind

body twisted to fit the sky
eyes open to everything
taking in nothing
getting lost

fingers slipping through life
finding a hold
on a mans back
leaving behind traces of her life

veins open and on fire
from the life that she was given
and always refusing
love

do you ever feel just so alone?
like, you have all these friends,
but you still feel alone.
you feel sad.
depressed.
like you want to die.
so you drown your sorrows.
you drink,
you smoke,
and you pop pills.
you deprive your self of sleep,
so you can crash, and not dream.
so you can have a moments rest.
a moment where nothing is wrong.
but really, everything is wrong.
you feel like everything is falling apart
because it is
and one day
it all just gonna...
end.

Dawn comes and its time to
Eat but your friend
Ana is there for you and wont let you
D**own

I don't know if
I want to get high off of

                  you
                            pills
                                      
                                      or this addiction

I'm*                    wishing constantly
    not                 knowing what for
       afraid          of what I might get
            to            be rescued or to    
                jump?

I kissed your lips
      as the sun faded
          and you turned to dust

When I was younger,
innocent,
I wondered
"Why do people like those thing?"

And now,
I know exactly why
people like the things they do.

when you can feel your soul
turning into dust
and your skin
falling apart
and your bones
shattering

that's when you know
that you are alone