You know that feeling you get when you're starting to fall for someone; When you start thinking about that person a little more every day.
Those fluttery butterflies that are starting to form in your stomach and you are starting to get scared and you want it to stop yet at the same time you don't. There's a saying that says, "You know you're in love when you can't sleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." Amen. So true. I'm falling deeper and deeper every time I see her. I don't know, she just gives me this vibe that says, "Falling in love with you is scary, but it feels right because I know it's worth it." You know that feeling? I know that I have two options: Let this whole entire crush go and move on, or fall in love and hope for the best. Well, I think we all know which I'm gonna pick. Alas, I say may everyone have that feeling. Everyone deserves that feeling. Everyone deserves to know what it's like to be in love. Some might disagree because love can sometimes cause heartache and people will say, "I don't deserve this." Well, yeah. No matter what relationship you're in, it's not gonna be all rainbows and sunshine. It has it's ups and downs. You're gonna fight. You might even break sometime in anger. But eventually, you move on, with or without that person. You forgive and even though it's hard, you forget. When I get married, divorce, well that's not in the cards that have been dealt. It's forever and always, like it or not. That's the way God intended it to be. I think about this girl quite often, not compulsively or obsessively. But I'd be lying if I said that she didn't cross my mind a few times a day. I'd be lying if I said that I don't think about the sound of her voice and how much I miss it, and the smell of her perfume and how it gets me in an unpredictable crush like uproar. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to push her up against a wall and kiss her. I'd be lying if I said that sleeping next to her was the worst feeling. I'd be telling a fib if I said that I don't long for the day that she thinks, "You're the one I want.", if I didn't dream of the day that she's jumping up and down, screaming, "Yes!", if I didn't build my expectation of the day that she would look me in the eyes and say, "I do." I'd be lying if I told you that I haven't thought about what it'd be like to wake up to her by my side every morning, even though I've liked her for a month. Well, my friends, I like to plan ahead.