The rain calls for pained ones.
With walls bathed in blame's blood.
The halls shake with thunders hate.
In the wake of past "mistakes."

So where did my friends go oh where have they gone?
They're on a fence post and I'm all alone,
So where did my friends go and where have they gone?
They never left me, I left them all.

Hurting so bad,
Over things long past.
A pinch of karma,
Is kicking my ***.

We are one as if the sun had forgotten how to set.
Forgetting forgets now what else have I forgotten too forget?

I'ma mess I know you won't settle for second best,
Barely hanging on to, second place.
Learning now that you're a waste
Falling away, no longer, trying to stay.
Learning this game I'm trying to play.
Time will tell... Maybe one day...

My mind is the enemy, drawing lines in the sand,
They boarder my life, and choose where I can stand.
Between Heaven and Hell, I am with no cause.
A moment of hope, and all is not lost.

It's dreary overhead, when it's clear that you love him. A thousand more emotions, you could conjure on a whim. So see a reason why I sing? To exhume the demons beneath my skin! I escape the haunting's of this dream through love and other things. To change maybe not the movie but possibly this scene. To escape all the things I make but couldn't keep, the keep which now I sit, high atop my peak, on a throne for ruined kings.

It's like kissing the undead, his lips don't feel the same, his stare is cold and blank, and all sensations are telling you to run, but you never had the chance. You are his forever, or at least forever now, cause if you really wanted to, you could turn around, leave this place without a sound, but you don't want that, and I swear you never did, because of how you love the pain, oh how it's torturous. But I am not a lover only but the loved, learning how to kiss with these lips of withered skin.

Fair enough, home always *****,
But please dear, don't use a crutch,
Wherever you go, things are rough,
Life is about, learning this stuff.
So take your time, shake the rust,
Hold your breath and build up love.
Then this town will be yours to crush.

A family thinks I am doing nothing, Little do they know I have been dreaming. It's talking to my friends that's done the leading, before you speak learn what I've been dealing..

I felt your clothes, and they're still warm,
A world apart, but smell of home.
I miss your touch, the sound of us,
Laughter as I pinch your ****.
Tears for now, I made it such,
Who'd have known, that I'd get ******.
Time will tell if it was love,
Or maybe just, addicted to lust.

Don't you fret, my little love.
I won't leave you, now as such.
Although I hurt you, much to much.
We shall heal, with a soothing touch.
A softer breath, a shoulder shrug.
A New York kiss. A big warm hug.

2 more years, won't be enough.
To convey, my love for us.
A lifetime may, just have to do,
To convey, my love for you.

How could you stand me?
Weren't you unhappy?
Held there,
Gripped by sheer gravity.

The devil called and he wants my soul!
The burning hell's are calling me home!
The devil called and he wants me so!
I might just answer with a hearty hello!

The deals made and I'm into it.
One more month and i'll be a hit.
The deals made and is making me rich,
Dreams come true then fall off quick.

The devil called so long ago,
My time is up and I have to go,
The devil made a deal with me,
And now I suffer for eternity..

To trace your back, with fingertips,
To kiss your stomach, and then your lips.
If only I, could have just one last wish,
You and I; simply this.

Demons deep and dark inside; so deep and dark reside,
Watching from a distance, as daylight all but dies.
Gazing over oceans, a dark hole in your mind,
You are giving into vices, and you know this isn't right.
But you do not make sense, of my reasoning sometimes,
So reach into that dresser, and calmly grab a knife.

While looking in the mirror, a sudden change of heart,
You know where this will lead you and you **** sure will not start.
You take that wretched knife, and plunge it in the ocean,
You take that darkest demon, and ******* tear it open.
It's blood is now like rain, just like you have been hoping,
You've beaten all the pain, and now to start the coping.

Alone I sit in my house, plans to go out that won't stay afloat.
This life I lead is quite talked about, so exciting to see all these things that you don't.
The walls are green but you wouldn't know, the T.V is big and that's always on.
My heart always aches, but I carry on.
I sit on my bed, and, and.. I'm all alone.
Repeat
Repeat
*Repeat

Holding your tongue is so hard, when you have so much to say,
An ocean of thoughts but these thoughts are held under oceans of waves.
A simple gesture to hold them at bay but it's not so simple as some others say.

A thousand words, a world within a head,
I can not spill, for fears and thoughts of imminent dread.

I'm sick of people;
In all shapes and sizes,
I buy your ****,
Why should I buy your disguises?

Before this shelter, had brought the cold.
He called for war, and fought the world,
He began to slip, and fall so short,
He called for help, but was abhorred,
These things happen when you seal your doors.
Shut them out and block their voice,
Hiding from the darkest hole,
The reaches of your darkened soul.

To find my inner peace, I must simply have, peace within.

Poor humanity, it's so sad to see,
All my hopes, and all my dreams,
Swiftly swept, out to sea.
Blamed on him, and blamed on me.
Let us look and see what be.
Look at the man, who stands to win.
From this hellish, selfish thing.
There he'll be, the one behind.
All the troubles, and all the lies.

Nothing makes sense in this old battered head.
A thousand mistakes, all came and went.
A flurry of pain, of love and regret.
I think I can, I thought I could, I never will.
Unfortunately, I am a mess.

I think that's just it,
The illusion of love,
But if you're already in one then why wake up?
I guess it's just human to run, sometimes it means you've had enough,
Fight or flight and I'm all full of cuts...
You cut away this trust, now it's time to let go of this lust we call "us."

Maybe it's just me,
But it seems I've seen this scene.
I may be with a lack of sleep,
But I know this is not a dream.
No, fallacy,
This is real time,
With, "her majesty"
Playing tricks on me.
But I will not fall,
For such silly games,
Such moves that a,
Lying queen would play.

Stop dreaming, start believing, these things will happen, have no ceiling.
Time's ticking, I'm wishing, someday, somehow you will see me.
On a stage, up in lights, far away to greater heights.
I will take me, you will see.
One day somehow I'll be free.

Time stop's for no man, so I need to be quick,
I'm on an ocean only pausing for a bit.

If only thoughts, would congregate,
All these worries, just went to sleep.
My stomachs contents, learnt to keep,
Then just maybe, I could weep,
Say what I mean,
Lay on your shoulder, cry for a week,
Pick up my things and **** it repeat.

My mind's bleeding out, and no one else knows. My thoughts plague me with doubt; and my world's full of holes.
I better pick up a pail, and start saving myself, cause this water is rising, creating a hell.

So on frail wings, I am learning to fly, making up things, to put on my mind,
So far from land even these angels have died, I look in the mirror but I have gone blind.
Left now to wonder why oh god why.

I've got an ache in my heart, left over from this hate that was ours, we had a thing we called love, turns out pretending's no fun.

I've found a place for my art, Just left of whats left of the shell of myself. A hole's what it's called, burying this, and you, and everyone else.

You are my whole heart,
You are my whole soul,
I'd give up my everything,
To be your whole world.

3 A.M. and my mind is on you.
This is me trying to be fine, without you.
I don't know, where this poem is going.
But at 3 A.M. I've found that I die without you.

You are so lovely, I could drown in your eyes.
But my fear is really, what do they hide?
A beautiful angel, with a demons disguise.
Eyes may be one thing, but lips speak the lies.

I feel my feelings for you aren't adequately expressed, through the internet.
I need to see you face to face, for you to get a glimpse of the words and what they meant.

Another night alone in my room,
Staying awake I long for my moon..
I shed a tear, oh hey it's for you.
Turns out misery's, a party for two.

Taking a midnight stroll,
Through streets of memories, paved in gold.
Reforming and god I know,
Only I choose where I'll go.

A dozen words are worth a picture,
When you get the perfect scripture.
A dozen seconds, worth a minute,
If only you were in it.

Trapped like a rat in a cage,
Imprisoned by my selfish ways.
I am lost in a mind of a maze,
Time is up it's my end of daze.

I can't move passed the past with this heart of glass,
A core of stone that's gone so fast,
It erodes too quick, that I can not catch,
All the things, that I wish could last.

I woke up at 2 thinking of you,
Now I can't sleep,
My night has been ruined.

Let's organize and repair, Understand and care.
Life is fading fast, it won't always be there.
So pick yourself up, do away with ego,
It is a trap, with a grasp and a hold.
A painful trick, played by the cold.

I haven't thought of you in forever, and it hurts me, a pain through this heart of leather.
I've heard that you are doing better, and it helps me, get through all this weather.

Like the leaves,
Slowly falling,
In a world,
Lost their calling.
In a life,
That so daunting,
What is left?
Not worth flaunting.

With you as my passion, a love everlasting,
Intertwined so deep, this lust I shall keep,
Sheltered inside, while living a lie
Given a voice but never a choice,
Destiny has got the best of me.

You say you're alive,
But in living a lie,
You have never truly,
Opened your eyes.
You're 6 feet under,
Before your demise,
People never begin,
Only to die.

How could I ever, let this go,
I found something that's my whole world,
Dear god I don't know,
How I could ever leave this girl.

I always thought I could, "Turn that around"
But I always said,
I don't want too, at least not right now.

I'ts been runnin me, into the ground,
But that's just it,
I'm on the right side, of a ship going down.