my new years resolution is
to not get my heart broken
let me explain to you how ****** up
that is
i have given my heart too many times
to someone who was supposed to save me
but only left me to pieces in the end
i have continually tried and tried
and tried and tried
and tried and tried and tried
again and again and again
for someone who only wanted to use me
i have given my heart up a billion times
with hopes that maybe this time things will be
a little bit different
something better
something real
but each time i am left
putting myself back together
but this year i won’t open my heart
to some ******* ******* who uses
emotions as some disguise to get
into my pants
this year i will not confuse
lust for love
toxic for beauty
continuously destructing myself in hopes
of finding something better



R.P.