With every exhaled breath
And every second passed by
My thoughts are in distress
The problems piling high
Makes me miss you more
And more
I have no sanctuary to run to
What is this inhaled breath for
In this life that feels useless

Where did I lose my way
When did I lose my grip
How did I let this life slip
I search my memories
Search for clues
Search the past
For answers
But all I find is you
And now I look in the mirror
At a stranger staring back
Who is getting more familiar
As my memories, my life
Are draped in black

Are my inside rotting or freezing
Is this blood coursing through my veins
Or is it madness, anger, sadness and shame
Is my heart disappearing, turning to ice
With every breath a memory of you comes twice
And my minds working overtime
Trying to keep alive the past
Trying to make a happy thought last
To keep the depression at bay
As my love, my life
Starts to fade away

For all you’ve given me
And all you’ve taken away
All the joy you gave
The tears you saved
The tears you let fall
For giving it your best
But not giving it your all
For showing me life
Showing me death
Bringing me through heaven
To put me through hell
All the truth you told
The lies you did tell
For all I had
And all I will miss
I thank you
For giving me at least one kiss

As time progresses
And days go by
I don’t seem to forget you
I don’t seize to cry
They say it takes time to heal
The wound can seal
But the scar tissue is still there
And so are the feelings I feel
The feelings of love and care
I wish you were still here
Losing you was my biggest fear
Now that you are gone
I never feel scared
Death can come visit me at my home
I wouldn’t mind the company
I’m feeling awfully alone
And you thought you were so smart
Saying at a young age
Relationships can’t have a loving heart
And you thought you were so clever
Saying it had to end sometime
Nothing last forever
But I know you are wrong
There is one thing
That will always be strong
That will last forever
And that is my love for you

Days are long, Nights the same
Filled with sadness, hope and shame
Happy thoughts turning to dust
These are the thoughts
Thoughts of nights of love and lust
That slowly fade away
In the past were they belong
The sadness and shame
Is not what is wrong
It’s the hope staying somewhat strong
The hope that I cant let go to
The hope of love that i know
The love we once knew
That time will hopefully find us back together
That is slowly killing me

The dream becomes a haunting
The angel becomes a demon
And I always feel her taunting
As I keep dreaming
As she keeps flaunting
In the eye of the storm in my mind