Here I sit, silently suffocating by the hands of a ghost I used to call a friend.
Her red nails ever dripping with the fragile essence that once was,
And the image of her face, so elegantly haunting, has been burned upon my eyes forever.
As her hands grasp around my tender neck, all I can do is relive the past.
The good, the bad, the perfect, and the grotesque all culminate into one.
As I slip away, I begin to wonder if everything I know was solid truth,
or if it was all a simple ruse, strategically planned for her sick sadistic pleasure.
Now in the last seconds of my conscious state I know I’ll never be forgiven
For the things I did to generate your undying hate.

I can't believe he loved her so,
She put a bullet in his brain,
She left him there, like a stone,
And let him lye in pain

His last dying wish was for her to love him
As he laid in pools of blood.
I'm not sure if it was lack of consciousness
Or that his veins were filled with mud.  

Those who slowly pass his grave,
Say you can still hear him cry,
"where are you my love...?"
"I need you, before i can truly die.

There are many things I I wish I could make you see
I wish I could show you I'm sorry
But I have to let you be
I wish you could see how much I've changed
But to contact you now would seem deranged
I wish I could show you that your still my friend
But to you that chance is at an end
I wish I could tell you I never gave up your secrets
But to you it's probably just meaningless
I wish I could make you see you should forgive me
But I know your thought of me is empty
There are many things I wish I could make you see...

She'll be digging her toes in the California sands
Only Being catered to by the loveliest of hands.
Her heavenly vocals will take her to the top of the charts
Mangling and delighting a billion hearts
She'll be the next Beyonce or Lana Del Ray
But probably something better, many would say.
She'll get everything she wants, all and more
I just hope she remembers me when I see her on tour

I wish I could end your suffering
I've tried to ease your pain
Don't let it get the best of you
Though it's driving you insane

Your a better women now
You've learned from your mistakes
It'll all be over very soon
Although your heart aches

The time, it will slowly pass
And the memories will fade
Till something better comes,
And new ones can be made

Your an independent women, friend Beautiful and strong
There's no need to shed a single tear
Something better will come along.

I want to be the arms that hold you when you’re sad;
Your shoulder to cry on when times get bad.
I want to be the one who puts you into bed,
The one who’s arm rests between the pillow and your head.
I want to give you my jacket when you get cold
And be the one, who cares for you when you get old.
But if their comes a time when all of this ends
I’ll be happy knowing we’ll always be best friends.

I never thought I would care once more
Your gorgeous face knocking at my red door.
It's hard to maintain the feelings for an ex
I would rather do what's right than have passionate ***
I don't know if it's just old simple routine
I can't figure out what you should mean
I know your independent like a soaring bird
And thought of landing seems completely absurd
But I know is I can't hold back any more
Soon ill be knocking on your squeaky red door.

The days grow long and the nights grow short
Emotions and thoughts have become hard to sort
There wasn't meant to be any sorrow
But I feel Your love I can no longer borrow

Though the path we have chosen has come to an end
There are brighter pastures for us around the bend
We'll remember the good times along with bad
And neither of us will forget what we had

But there was a fork in the road that we both had to face
Knowing there would come an end to our loves embrace
Soon we will find ourselves happier than before
Hopefully walking for never more.

My dear I fear for you
For a heart that can't forgive
Is no heart at all
Your words were like daggers
That pierced through my soul
Yet I forgave you
Your silence screamed louder than any man could shout
Yet I forgave you
You took away the only one I felt truly comfortable with
Yet I forgave you
If I can forgive you for everything
Why can't you forgive me?

The sun sets gently under Pastel sky's
Bringing with it a fond warm lit night.
The stars dancing elegantly
In their bright white coats
As the see through clouds
So calmly float.
The moon glows softly through the tops of the trees
As the night yawns a soft peaceful breeze
Nighty nighty said little child
As he laid his small head down for a while.

Our perfect storm of red has come to an end
Hearts left bleeding and people pretend
Our shores of trust are left dry and rioten
It's warm memories with it, soon forgotten  
Our connecting ground has washed away
Only stagnant waters are left at bay
Our perfect storm has to a close
The distance between us only grows

Take this place and burn down the walls
Vacate the stores and all the school halls
Let us rebuild from the ashes we make
I'm sure Something better We can create
Let us be like the Phoenix and rise again
For our mistakes we can now amend
Let's start a new world that's equal for all
Regardless of color or position big or small
Let us fill this new place with all we are worth
Raising all children correctly from birth
Although this fantasy can never be real
It will always carry much mass appeal.

There is such beauty in the unexplained
A feeling so grand that no words can do it justice
To have no satisfaction with anyone but one
To wear your heart on your sleeve and be overjoyed
To think and not think all at the same time
To trust someone with everything and nothing
To give up nothing and everything
To feel secure and vulnerable all at once
You are forever my mystery
There is such a beauty in the unexplained

He's finding his way back to sanity, again
Carefully trending through his shadows
desperate for changes, and starving for truth
He's still hanging by the moment he held on to.

His heart was calculative and cold
But he now sits in warm embrace.  

He still knows his lovers face,
But he longs for love's new taste.

His chains have been broken
And he now walks free
He's spinning around, but hanging  on tight
This time he will gracefully fall into heaven's true embrace.

You say you believe in something
But irony says you don't
You build up your morals as your god
And then you slit his throat.
You've tarnished what is good and pure
Your fellow man betrayed
You've warped angels into monstrosities
All hope has decayed.

Medication time wheezed nurse ratchet
Her yellowed teeth as sharp as a hatchet
Medication time medication time
She shouts once more
Leaving me sickly chilled to my core
Medication time medication time
she hisses in my ear
Will I ever get better or is it only my fear?
Medication time medication time
she picks up in pace
If the medicines working why do I feel I'm being erased?
Medication time medication time
It comes to an end
I've been lobotomized and left for dead

The beast has come, it's that time of season
It robs me of my hopes and reason
It leaves me only guilt and sorrow
Forever dreading my day tomorrow
The pain is immense and comes and goes
For how long...no body knows
But hopefully soon this will all end
It's getting harder to play pretend

The color red is dead
A made up primary that came from our heads.
An evil marking of false trust
Not of love, just of lust
It consumes our thoughts and our hearts
Bringing us together and tearing us apart
It brings us no where,
But back to the start.

A bird is an elegant creature
Filled with good intention as they sore
They spread their wings with grace and freedom
Ever peaceful and completely free
Once a bird is trapped in cage
It is longer a free spirt, but a trapped soul
A soul slowly polluting and decaying
A bird that can not fly slowly goes mad
A rage building until they eventually snap
I'm afraid my wings have been snipped
And further into mad rage I slip
Flightless traded for elegance and freedom
Soon I'll fear a great part of me will be dead.

Everyone wants to be loved.
Were all searching for our imaginary partner
Women crave their knight in shining armor
While men dream of their glorious queen

We all want to feel the perfect touch
An unforgettable breath on our necks
A kiss that leaves us gasping
And a feeling of warmth that lasts forever

We all just want to let go
And give ourselves up completely
Sharing our mind, body and soul
And just loose control of our selves

Everyone wants to be loved
One day we'll find our mythical partners
Women will find their men shining armor
And men will find their sweet, lovely queens

Hey there stranger remember my face?
I think we knew each other in a different time and place.

There was even a time I think you knew my name
But you may have forgotten it because of the pain
I think there was a time you knew all my secrets
What made me strong and what made me the weakest
I think there was a even a time we locked lips
Eyes closed with our hands on one another's hips

So hey there's stranger do you remember my face?

No...it must have been another person at a different time or place.

I have anchored my roots on the shores of your heart
Fighting the tides of your past as we fell apart
In your desolate wasteland of sand I now sit
My flowers a bloom show no sign to quit
If your sands of passion allow me to grow
Then I will flourish to a point you only dream to know
But if you’re emotional shoals take their toll
Then I will pack up my red pedals and go.

Today is the day, I died inside
My soul has finally broken
Numb and without repair
I lie upon a cold, black bed

The tears that once drowned my face
Have now dried up without a trace
Forgotten with each memory
That composed each tiny drop

Hopelessness is setting in
My heart has grown cold and hollow
I'm diseased without a cure
I wish their was a magic pill I could swallow

Ill be alone for the rest of my days
It's just how it will always be
I'm the killer of my own relationships...
I guess you can call it suicide

In your arms I was the safest of all
A feeling so grand it had no name to call
The times I was with you seemed like a dream
I don't think that i'll ever know what you mean
I still hold your secrets and you hold mine...
Hopefully our souls will meet again in time

In this life, I guess some of us just get completely abanded, are self suffocating, and can never be loved...
I just wish it wasn't me.

Now I know I will never be free
These angel wings were not meant for me
Ive tried to soar with all my heart
But the thought of you just tears me apart.
I've tried glide above the ground
But in my head your always found
I spread my wings and heave a sigh
Perhaps I can never say goodbye.

Tonight I morned the death of a friend
I've burned all the letters I could never send.
I buried her memories in a jet black box
And carefully tighned the new found locks.
I washed off the filth and got ready for bed
Knowing no more thoughts of her would dance through my head
I pulled up the sheets and turned out the lights
I've never slept better than I have tonight

In our golden days I came to you
And would melt in your embrace
But now your heart is in another place
Emotion used to have a home behind your hazel eyes
Your stoic gaze announcing our demise
Everything simply meaningless lies
I wish I could of done or said the thing to keep you there
But I doubt you even cared.

I knew you and you knew me
We shared our deepest secrets
But time wouldn't let us be
I knew you and you knew me
I changed and lost you
But I was too blind to see
I miss you but you don't miss me
Unknown to you
You were the key
I miss you but you don't miss me
If you truly cared I'll have to wait and see

History repeats it's self time and time again
The faces of lovers now the ones of ghosts
The faces of friends washed out, and stretched
The faces of acquaintances long forgotten

Unwanted feelings come rushing back
Unlocking the true nature of the heart
Uniting present and the decaying past
******* our souls burdening desires

Control of faculties lost from ancient lust
Contact with previous lovers now alien.
Concentration is lead completely astray
Continually history will repeat itself again

Every day my heart grows colder
A victim of the dreaded black ice
The less I move, the more I try
The more I struggle, the more I frost

I lie in this place of snowy despair
My mind slowly slipping breath, by passing breath

I drown without with out you
How I loved you so
I guess we just killed each other
And didn't know

Until I'm reunited with your elegant soul
I suffer, and ice over more than you'll ever know

You plagued my heart
And tore it to shreds
But I still think of you
Without regret

I fear the only cure
Is your comforting warmth
Your arms wrapped around me...
More fondly than before
You caressed my soul in total bliss,

Your company...I still dearly miss.
I hope some day we reunite
To avoid this inevitable..,deadly frost bite.

It is our duty as human beings to inspire
To spark in others an undying desire
So let us pick up our pens and pencils
Our paints, chisels, and stencils
Our microphones, drums, and musical tools
And our books, beakers, and new found rules.
Let us make a path for greatness to follow
So we can make a much berighter tomorrow.

I hope one day you'll remember, how i used to be
Like the time we met, and you feel asleep next to me
I'm not crazy...I'm just a little unwell
The fact I couldn't express my passion, was complete hell

I know we had our good times, and we had some bad ones too,
But after I become myself once again, I want to make things up to you

I remember the night you cried in my arms
Sharing your every secrets, expecting no harm
I know the way it ended, I torn us apart,
But, my dear, you'll always have a place in my heart

I must admit I lost all control
This aliment was way too much for my dying soul
I broke our connection...That was something more
But I don't expect you to come knocking back at my door  

Since that tragic day I've never forgotten your face
I was completely out of line, and out of place

But if you could some how see me during my darkest hour
My heart could finally start growing sweet, and a slowly less sour.

We trade our sadness for sweetness
All our strength, for weakness.
But I guess, we need this
Were are to vulnerable

We die like a flower
Wilting hour by hour
Were sweet turned sour
And to way to vulnerable  

We take pleasure with the pain
Slowly becoming insane
Our hearts overstrained
Were are to vulnerabe

Two brothers forever locked in a feud
One named innocence and the other lewd.
Both born from a different mother
Although identical to each other

Innocence has gone away
Leaving only lewd to hectically play
In the path of his destruction
He Leaves innocence in a state of corruption

He must now take the blame
For all of Lewd's ungodly pain
this sibling rivalry will remain the same
Lewd is much too hard to tame

If you could of only seem the pain behind her eyes
Drenched in sorrow and disappointment
She ran,
Far away from the tombstone love.
Sprinted away from all her fears
The man who kept the rocky road of her past a secret
The man who knew her for what she was
A wounded butterfly, that crookedly floats along life
Someday I long to be with her down her lonely road again...
A bandage for her broken wing, and the gentle breeze that guides her along.

Night after night I dream of you
And in the morning I am haunted
For not keeping you, my love
My heart is forever taunted

Every night I see your face
Your lips as red as roses
I relive your body's every curve
Until my dream forecloses

If I could sleep forever, my love
I would do so in an instant
For I know I can't truly be with you
But my heart is persistent.

Night after night I dream of you
And in the morning I am haunted
For not keeping you, my love
My heart is forever taunted.

You are the poison that pulses through my veins
Making me question my sanity and feeling insane
I wish I'd never seen your haunting face
I wish the memories would vanish without a trace
I hate you, but I love you, I was scared of you, but I know you

I wish I could say it was all a dream, I wish I could say it wasn't true.
I long for your happiness at the cost of my own
Maybe one day I'll now longer reap what I've sown.

Denny all authority
corruption of conformity
Never believe all that your told
Don't let your self be bought and sold
Our legal system is an utter stye
So let your ******* hang high
It is time for every soul to unite
And win this utterly ****** up fight
It is time for all of us to be free
And let a better order be.

Some say I'm a child of god
Some say of the spawn of the devil
Others say I got the 9 lives of a cat
Others say I'm as filthy as a dog

Pick an adjective
And that's my name
But don't wear it out  
It changes day by day

Some say I'm a child of the stars
Others say I'm the shadow of the sun
Some say my aura is made of gold
Others say its convoluted and gray

Pick an adjective
And that's my name
But don't wear it out
It changes day by day

Some say I have a caring heart
Others say I'm as cold as a stone
Some say they'll be with me for life
Others say I'm better off alone.

Pick an adjective
And that's my name
But don't wear it out
It changes day by day

Regret nothing from your past.
If everything from the past didn't occur
You wouldn't be the person you are today.

We are all children longing for the better days
The days when our sand box seemed like the greatest of deserts
When a trip down a narrow slide was the greatest of adventures
When we loved and forgave without a second thought
The days when we knew ourselves
Without worry, judgment, or care

Some say love it lasts forever
But this idea I choose to sever
Some say there is no furry like a women scorn
That's when love gets tattered and torn
Some say love, it is a feeling of peace
But I say it's just feelings on lease
Some say there's plenty of fish in the sea
But I say there's just no one for me

One finds their soul mate and is happy for life
While another finds only pain that cuts like a knife
One finds comfort in confiding their secrets
But in the end it'll be their greatest weakness

Some say love, it is a flower
But I say it's sweet that goes sour
Some say love, it is a blessing
But I say it's just purely guessing
Some say love, it is always true
But only till your love forgets about you
Some say love, it never dies
But I say many are in for a big surprise.

If I could travel back with restless sails
I would navigate your waters with more caution.
You capsized my red vessel in an instant
And washed me to Barron shores

Much time has passed since I've treaded your seas
But I long to float in them once more
Im waiting to find my albatross to guide me home
But I fear it'll never show

Perhaps one day I'll be immersed in your warm your waters again
But if the storm hasn't settled than I just might drown instead.

I drown in the icy waters of hesitation
Swimming toward a green light in the distance I'll never reach
Each breath filling my lungs with more pain than the last
My brain freezing over as my extremities go numb
Straying further in to the great glowing green light
I find the strength to speed of the pace
But alas I go under, the green tinge on my blue face as I sink

I have opened up the doors with good intentions
But find my self in lustful apprehension
I want to do what's good and right
But I find the emotion too hard to fight
I guess some feelings, they never change
They only fade away and get rearranged
I only want to help, and that is true
But there is still so much I want to do to you.

You were a figment of my imagination
Not the real thing, just a cheap imitation
A lucid dream, I thought I could control
The perfect dream defined by my soul

I miss the calls in the middle of the night
Your passion burning so ever bright
Though now it's just a calm distant light
It's still something for which I need to fight.

I dream of you beneath starry skies
The Milky Way as majestic as your
Angel eyes
The moon shines bright all through the night
Like the energy of your radiant light
The clouds slowly form a smirk
Reminding me of how we didn't work
But I politely force a smile
I'll beautifully suffer for a while

The mind is reptilian in nature
Shedding its skin each passing day

The hollow remains seem that of someone else
Where they haven't changed, but we know they're not the same.

We slither around in our new found skins
Slowly adapting to each situation
Forever shedding to meet need after need
Sometimes to a point when we bleed

Our skin my shed and our colors the same
But some of us change skin so much we forget our names.

Prisoned and shackled we are
The truth visible through our every scar
Our Hands chained and our legs bound
Forever tightening us to this concrete ground
Our condition has been inherited from our parents before
From the filthy rich to the struggling poor
This despicable state is decaying our mind
Our only hope is to leave this world far behind.